"Now," said Mr. Spenlove, "you may call me fanciful and overwrought, but
I read into that simple question a secret desire to accustom my mind to
the idea of death as a frequent and common sort of affair. I looked at
her suspiciously and she raised her eyes to mine full of a clear
feminine candour. She may have known that my morose taciturnity came
from a consciousness that she had divined the fundamental flaw in my
emotional equipment and was using it for her own purposes, but she did
not show it. And while I was debating the question with myself, I heard
her add, in a shy, delicate tone, 'There is a little garden just here,
on the water.'
"And from that moment I let her have her way and followed her lead. We
crossed the street. I heard her say it was too early to go to the _Rue
Paleologue_, which might be true, but struck me as irrelevant. And then
my attention was drawn to a high square house standing in a dusty yard
and decorated with a long board bearing the words _École Universelle_.
"'I was at school there before we went to America,' Miss Saratov
remarked, poking at the place with her parasol. 'It was a good school
then, very solid instruction,' she added, 'but now it isn't any good.'
"'Is the instruction no longer sufficiently solid?' I asked.
"'The mistresses are all progressives,' she returned. 'Here is the
little garden,' and we came out upon a small place of grass and shrubs,
flanked by a pair of _kiosques_ joined by a wooden balustrade. It was
deserted, as one might expect at that hour; but Miss Sarafov remarked
that we might have coffee and rusks if I liked, and walked across the
sward to a door in a neighbouring house. I went into one of the
_kiosques_ and sat facing the calm waters of the Gulf. Facing something
else, too, which was anything but calm. For I was unable to rid myself
of a fear that when this episode was completed I should be in a very
difficult position. I should be like a man who had been struggling in
the waves, only to find himself suddenly flung up high and dry upon a
desolate and inhospitable shore, where he would in all probability
perish of privation. And then, if you like to carry the parable a little
further, this man becomes aware of a siren calling him back into the
watery tumult.... And you know, I doubted my ability to manage the
situation if I were to go back. One needs a special education, or let us
say, temperament, to deal successfully with sirens. And as Miss Sarafov
came into the _kiosque_ and sat down beside me, I felt the immediate
necessity of making my position clear. I began at once to tell her that
the events of the previous day had changed everything. I should in all
probability never come to Saloniki again. And while I felt it my duty
to see Captain Macedoine and also to return Miss Sarafov herself to her
mother, I should then go back to the ship for good.
"'And I shall never see you again,' she exclaimed, looking out across
the Gulf, in a kind of magical abstraction.
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