“You’d ate all your molasses, sir; from last week.”
“There was some left in the tin. You’ve been at it again.”
“No, sir. I swear I haven’t, sir.”
“How many times have I told you I won’t have you swear? Eh? Give me my
supplejack.”
“Oh, sir, I won’t do it again. I won’t do it again.”
“There, my boy. Perhaps that’ll teach you another time. Now go and lay
my supper. If you don’t stop howling I’ll give you another six.”
The boy went forward howling, to hide in the darkness of the hold,
where he could cry by himself, choking with misery and shame, praying
for death. If he had had a flint and steel he would have burnt the
_Broken Heart_ at her anchor. As he had none, he sobbed himself to
sleep, careless of Mr. Harthop’s supper, full of the bleeding, aching
misery which none save the wronged child can ever taste to the full.
When it was dark and all had gone to bed, he crept aft to the
ward-room, where the bread-barge and the case of spirits stood, just
as the two mates had left them. He helped himself to bread and rum;
for misery had made him reckless. Besides, having defied Mr. Harthop
he might as well defy the two mates. So he ate and drank, looking at
the light on the landing-stage, which made a golden track to dance. It
trembled in yellow flakes on the water, a path of gold, to the
blackness of the rudder eddies below him. He was not very sure if he
could swim so far; but he did not care. He was too wretched to mind
drowning. It was very dark in the wardroom. It was dark above him in
the cabin. Below him, the ship’s shadow was dark. He was sure that the
watchmen would not see him. They never walked on the poop. After a
moment of groping he found the falls of the relieving-tackle, and
unrove the raw hide till he had an end ten feet long. He hitched the
tackle so that the block should not creak, and paid out the end
through the chase-port. Then, as even the most miserable of us will,
he felt the misery of leaving. This ship of wretchedness had been a
home to him. He remembered the singing in the dog-watch. It was awful
to have to go like that. In his wretchedness, a tear or two rolled
down his cheek, to splash on the port-sill. A light footstep moved up
and down above him. One of the stern-windows of the cabin opened with
a little rattle. He heard Stukeley’s voice coming from the state-room
drowsily. Then Mrs. Stukeley spoke from overhead.
“It’s such a beautiful night, Tom. Do come and see the stars. They’re
wonderful. Wonderful. Come and see them, Tom dear.”
“You’ll catch your death of cold.”
“Bow-wow-wow. What an old bear. I shan’t. I’ve got on my
dressing-gown.”
“Thanks. I prefer my bed.”
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