Detective and mystery stories; England -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Murderers -- Fiction
Five minutes went by in silence, and then he began to mutter to himself
in a low voice, turning his head from side to side every now and then
in a quick, nervous, birdlike way, his eyes never still a moment, but
pouncing restlessly first on one object and then on another.
“What’s come to me,” he said to himself, and there was a look on his
face which I have never seen except on the face of a madman--as,
indeed, I am now fully persuaded he was. “What’s come to me that I of
all men in the world should so forget myself as to behave--and before
two louts--like a drunken, screeching, hysterical Jezebel?”
He stopped his restless pacing for a moment, and it seemed to me that
the man was writhing under his self-contempt, as if every word had been
a lash cutting ribbons of flesh from his bare back. Once more he fell
to walking to and fro and holding converse with himself.
“Is the end coming, that I can break down like this?” he asked. “No,
no, it’s this being hunted down day and night, until I get to start at
my own shadow, that has made me nervous and overwrought.
“Nervous! Overwrought! My God! who wouldn’t be so who has led the life
I’ve led these last six months--hearing in the daytime the step of the
officer who has come to arrest me in every sound, and lying wide-eyed
and awake the whole night through rather than trust myself to the
sleep which brings always the same hideous dream, from which I awake
screaming and with the cold sweat running off me like water!”
It was a magnificent piece of acting, if acting it were, and there was
a pathetic break in his voice at the last which, had he not been what
he was, would have made me pity him.
But James Mullen, _alias_ Captain Shannon, was scarcely an object for
pity, as I was soon reminded, for as he looked up my eye met his, and
he read there, I suppose, something of what was passing through my
mind. To such a man’s vanity the mere thought of being considered a
possible object for pity is unendurable. It implies a consciousness of
superiority on the part of the pitier which is resented more fiercely
than an insult or a wrong. For one moment I thought that he was about
to attack me again--not this time with tooth and nail, after the manner
of a wild cat or a hysterical woman, but with a heavy three-legged
stool which was lying upon the bunk, tossed there, I suppose, by Hughes
to be out of the way while he was clearing up.
Mullen turned the edge of a glance toward it without taking his eyes
from mine, and I saw his hand flutter up hesitatingly for a moment like
a startled bird, and then drop dead to his side, and I knew that he was
thinking how dearly, if he dared, he would love to beat the stool again
and again against my face until he had bashed every feature out of
recognition. But on this occasion he managed to keep his self-control,
and contented himself by asking me, with savage irritability, what I
was waiting for, and what I saw strange in him that I stood staring in
that way.
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