Boys -- Juvenile fiction; Schools -- England -- Juvenile fiction; Sports stories
In ten days term would be over. The probability was that the school
would never know this sequel to the long fight until he had really gone.
Rumours that he was not to stay might reach them during the holidays,
but not until they reassembled for the Easter term and found that they
had really triumphed would they be sure. His imagination presented him
with a mental vision of how things would be then, and in the forefront
of the picture he saw the boy who throughout the term had fought him,
gloating over his fall. The flood-tide of Rouse’s popularity would carry
him in wild idolatry to the top of the school. And Rouse would ascend,
laughing bombastically at the memory of the master who had challenged
his hold over the school and who had been defeated. He slowly shook his
head in grave unhappiness. Always there had been strong in him a deep
desire to make a reputation and to hold it throughout his life. He would
like, after he had gone, that all honest fellows in the school should
say of him that he delighted in every crisis to stand alone, that he had
always taken them by surprise, that he had never done what they had
counted upon him doing.
Now he was defeated. The school would say of him instead that all his
life he had done wrong and that he had never been exposed till now. The
bubble that would be pricked would not be Rouse’s but his own. He
suddenly stood up. To be relieved of his post was not so terrible a blow
as was the certain knowledge that he would be remembered by the school
only as one who had been a three months’ wonder and who had failed. That
was more than he could bear. He looked round the room in sudden
petulance, and thought it stiff and unresponsive. The sober pictures and
the heavy curtains were glaring at him stupidly. He moved hesitantly
towards the door as if to escape from this environment. He wandered into
the passage, came to the old oak door and swung it upon its hinges. The
night air came round the corner, cooling his forehead with the touch of
an old friend. He knew then what he needed ... the friendly solitude of
the night. For perhaps the last time he would roam his provinces alone,
fighting the black depression that was slowly weighing him down.
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