England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
Cara had a visitor quite early next day, when she had just retired
upstairs to the drawing-room after breakfast. It was Edward Meredith,
who came with some message from his mother. He had been Cara’s friend
when they were both children, though Oswald was the one who had claimed
her intimacy since she grew up; and he had come now on a sort of
investigation to see for himself whether his brother had taken his
place. I think Cara, too, had a consciousness of Edward’s meaning,
though neither of them could have put it into words; and no idea of
love, properly so called, was in the minds of the boy and girl. To be
sure, he was twenty-one, no longer legally a boy, and thought himself
very much a man in many ways. He was aware that the little serious
maiden, who had been the friend of his childhood, appeared very sweet
and attractive to him now, and that he did not like Oswald to assume the
privileged place by her, to be the one who talked with her and walked
with her, and offered her those small services which it is often more
pleasant to render than to receive. Edward was not jealous of his
brother, but he had the suppressed consciousness of being placed at a
disadvantage by Oswald, which is not very unusual in the mind of the
younger of such a pair. Oswald had been, not above him, but a step in
front of him all his life; he had what those who did not like him called
more showy qualities, what those who did like him described as greater
talents than Edward’s. He talked better, he was more ready in
demonstration of his sentiments, and could always express
himself--whether on paper or in speech--more fluently. These were real
advantages; and to these, as was natural, the young man who felt himself
to be second added others which were not so real. He thought Oswald’s
verses, and literary pretensions, and gracefulness, and good looks were
all infinitely superior to his own, and was apt to be depressed, and not
to do himself justice in Oswald’s presence. It was a relief to find how
late Oswald was, and that he could come in, early in the morning, to
test Cara, and find out if all her friendliness had been transferred to
his brother. If so, Edward would not grumble, but he would know what he
had to expect, and would not look for anything more. When he had
delivered his mother’s message, there was a little pause. They had both
a little ingenuous awe of each other, and did not know how to begin.
‘How long it is since I have been here!’ Edward said at last; ‘not since
the days when I used to be afraid to move for fear of breaking some of
the beautiful things. My mother wisely refrained from china in those
days; but we were always told that Mrs. Beresford was “very particular.”
You do not mind my speaking of her? I remember her so well lying on the
sofa, like a picture. You are like her, Cara, but not very like her----
’
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