England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
find each for himself the primrose paths which suited him best; but he
did not inquire into the primrose paths of others. He was so pleased
with his own, so ready to tell everybody how delightful it was, how he
enjoyed it, what pretty fancies it abounded in, and pleasant
intercourse, and merry sunshiny ways. For Edward, who worked, he had the
kindest toleration, as for an odd fellow who found his pleasure that
way; and his mother, who sympathised with everybody, he regarded also
with half-laughing, satisfied eyes as one whose peculiar inclinations
laid her open to a charge of ‘humbug,’ which, perhaps, was not quite
without foundation. Let everybody follow their own way: that was the way
in which, of course, they found most pleasure, he said to himself, and
in the lightness of his heart had no idea of any other rule. Cara had
brought in a new and very pleasant element into his life; he liked to go
to her and tell her what he was doing and receive that ready sympathy
which was to him something like the perfume of flowers--a thing for
which it was quite unnecessary to make any return, but which was
delightful to receive, and which added a something more exquisite and
delicate to the very atmosphere in which this young demi-god lived,
caressed by gods and men. What more could he do for Cara or anyone but
communicate his own satisfaction to her, make her a sharer in the
pleasure he felt in himself and his life? He was ‘very fond’ of Cara.
He would not, for a moment, have permitted anyone to take her
companionship and sympathy from him. To tell Cara, was not that the
first thing that occurred to him when anything happened, any new
gratification or success? As for hearing from her in return what
thoughts came into her little head, what happened in her quiet
life--that did not occur to Oswald. To talk of himself seemed so much
more natural and so much more interesting, to Cara as well as to
himself. Was it not really so? He was a man, three-and-twenty, at the
very most triumphant period of life, free to go anywhere he pleased, to
do anything he liked, strong, clever, handsome, sufficiently rich. Could
any circumstances be more delightful, more satisfactory? No woman, let
alone a little girl, without freedom of action, could be so well off, so
consciously at the ‘high top-gallant’ of mortal pleasantness. The sense
of this suffused, so to speak, his whole being. It was not selfishness,
any more than happiness is selfishness; there was even a kind of
spontaneous unconscious gratitude in it for all the pleasant things in
his lot.
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