England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
wretches were just as tiresome and insubordinate as if they had been her
own brothers and sisters: nothing of the sentiment of their position
hung about them. And the Sisters were extremely business-like, and did
their duty without a tinge of romance, as if they had been hired to do
it. The awakening had been sharp for Agnes, but she had already got
beyond the first stage, and was now fighting with her disappointment and
arguing herself back into satisfaction. It was impossible to tell what a
help to her was the breaking of little Emmy’s leg. It is an ill wind
that blows nobody good. She would have liked to nurse her altogether,
but at least to go to her to the hospital, to cheer her, and whisper
consolation--that was something; and when the child’s face brightened at
her coming, Agnes, with a sudden throb of her heart, felt that at least
for the moment here was the ideal for which she had sighed. Here was
some real good of her. But for her nobody would have visited little
Emmy: they would have been content to hear that she was doing well: that
smile of half-celestial happiness upon the poor little sick face would
never have reflected heaven but for Agnes. It was the first approach to
contentment in her own occupation which she had ever felt. And she had
to work all the harder to get herself this pleasure, which made her
satisfaction still more warm.
But--whether it was right to talk to the stranger who was so very much
interested in poor little Emmy afterwards!--was that a part of the
ideal, too? To be sure he had a right to inquire--he had been present at
the accident, and had carried the child in his arms to the hospital--how
very kindly!--and talked with what understanding! and an enthusiasm
which was balm to Agnes, and partially rekindled her own. That he should
ask was quite natural; that he should walk with her back to the ‘House’
had seemed very natural, too. Quite natural--he did not look as if he
thought it a thing even to apologize about, but went on, with quiet
simplicity, going the same way as she did. Agnes felt that, as a young
lady at home, it would have appeared perhaps a little odd that a
stranger should have done this; but she reflected with a thrill, half of
pleasure, half of annoyance, that the uniform of a Sister had its
disadvantages as well as its advantages, and that while it protected her
from all rudeness, it at the same time broke the ceremonial bonds of
politeness, and left her open to be addressed with frank simplicity by
all classes of people. She had thought it right to let him know that she
was not a Sister, but only a teacher, but it had made no difference in
him. Perhaps (she explained to herself) it was the fact that there were
nothing but women at the ‘House,’ which gave a certain piquancy to this
conversation with a man; for the clergy, in their cassocks, were but a
kind of half and half, and talked just in the same tone as Sister Mary
Jane about the business of the ‘House,’ and subscriptions, and the
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