England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘With larger, other eyes than ours,’ said Edward piously, and the boy
believed it in the confidence of his youth. But how the narrow-minded
commonplace man who had been that distinguished civil servant, John
Meredith, should all at once have come to this godlike greatness by the
mere fact of dying, neither of them could have told. Was it nature in
them that asserted it to be so? or some prejudice of education and
tradition so deeply woven into their minds that they did not know it to
be anything but nature? But be it instinct or be it prejudice, what more
touching sentiment ever moved a human bosom? He had not been a man
beloved in his life; but he was as the gods now.
By-and-by, however--for reverential and tender as this sentiment was, it
was neither love nor grief, and could not pretend to the dominion of
these monarchs of the soul--the mother and son fell into talk about
secondary matters. She had sent for her dressmaker about her mourning,
and given orders for as much crape as could be piled upon one not
gigantic female figure, and asked anxiously if the boys had done their
part--had got the proper depth of hatbands, the black studs, &c., that
were wanted. ‘I suppose you may have very dark grey for the mourning;
but it must be _very_ dark,’ she said.
‘And you, mother, must you wear that cap--that mountain of white stuff?’
‘Certainly, my dear,’ said Mrs. Meredith with fervour. ‘You don’t think
I would omit any sign of respect? And what do I care whether it is
becoming or not? Oh, Edward, your dear papa has a right to all that we
can do to show respect.’
There was a faltering in her lip as of something more she had to say,
but decorum restrained her. That first day nothing ought to be thought
of, nothing should be mentioned, she felt, in which consolation had a
part. But when the night came after that long, long day, which they all
felt to be like a year, the secret comfort in her heart came forth as
she bade her boy good-night. ‘Edward, oh, I wish you had gone years ago,
when you might have been a comfort to him! but now that there is no
need----’ Here she stopped and kissed him, and looked at him with a
smile in her wet eyes, which, out of ‘respect,’ she would no more have
suffered to come to her lips than she would have worn pink ribbons in
her cap, and said quickly, ‘You need not go to India now.’
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