England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘Yes, darling,’ he said, ‘yes, sweet; yes, my own!’ and laughed and
looked, and made her face glow with his tender eyes. It was like
throwing sugar-plums at someone who was drowning. But Agnes was too much
in love herself to be able to realise that this was not the best way of
loving. It was very sweet, though it was almost cruel. How quickly the
dusk seemed to steal on! The colour faded away bit by bit from the sky,
the blue went out of the water, the wind grew a little chill--or was it
only anxiety and terror that made her chill? She began to forget
everything: what had happened, and even _him_, in her anxiety to get to
the shore. Her brain began to swim. What would become of her? what would
they say? Oswald was half affronted at last by her anxiety and silence,
and swept along with long vigorous strokes that vindicated his
character as an oarsman. Agnes sprang from the boat, almost neglecting
his offered hand, when at last it grated upon the beach.
‘I will run to the station,’ she cried, stumbling over the shingle, her
heart beating, and dread in her soul. The train! the train! that was all
she thought of; and oh, what would be thought of her? what had she been
doing? She rushed along through the darkness, scarcely seeing where she
went. Oswald had to stay behind, fuming, to settle about the boat, and
engage someone to take it back. He overtook her only as she got to the
station. A train was there just ready to start, about which he received
rather unsatisfactory information: but she had seated herself in the
dark corner of a second-class carriage before he got up to her. After a
moment’s pause he seated himself by her side. It was better, perhaps, at
least, to get as far on as they could--to get out of the village, which
was quite near enough to the Convalescent Home to permit of gossip
reaching that place; and by this time Oswald was as self-reproachful as
could be desired. He went and sat down beside her, penitent. It was no
trouble to him to take the blame on himself at any time, and Oswald, who
had been subject to much mild blame all his life, though he had never
done anything very wicked, knew that to take it upon yourself was to
disarm your adversaries. He adopted this facile and touching method of
self-defence.
‘What a brute I am!’ he said; ‘can you ever forgive me? to have risked
your comfort, my darling, for pleasure to myself!’
‘Oh no,’ she said, putting her hand timidly into his, which was held out
for it. It seemed clear at once to Agnes that it was her fault.
‘But yes,’ he said. ‘I ought to have been more thoughtful. Ah, forgive
me, dearest! think what the temptation was. I have never had you to
myself before. The day was too sweet to end; I was too happy; but I
should have thought of you.’
There was in this a subtle suggestion that she on her side had not been
so happy--the delicatest shade of reproach--which Agnes could not bear.
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