England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
‘And you don’t care what women think? You might have put off that lesson
till you were a little older. At your age what your mother thinks should
surely be something to you still.’
He gave her a look which was full of pain. Was that what he was
thinking? Was he sure to care little for what women thought? ‘You know
better, mother,’ he said harshly. He was all rubbed the wrong
way--thwarted, wearied, unhappy. ‘I only came for a book,’ he
continued, after a moment, picking up the first one he got hold of, and
then, with a little nod to the visitor, went upstairs again. What did
that visitor want here? Why did he leave his own house, and Cara
alone--poor Cara!--whom nobody loved as Edward did? It would be a great
deal better for Mr. Beresford if he would stay at home. After this
little episode Edward sat down stubborn and unyielding to his work
again. What did it matter if a man was happy or unhappy? He had his
day’s work to get through all the same.
‘Don’t think him harsh. I am afraid my boy is not quite happy,’ said
Mrs. Meredith, with tears in her eyes.
‘That is nothing,’ he said. ‘I am not a friend of yesterday; but he came
in when we were talking----’
‘Ah, yes,’ she said, but her eyes were still full of Edward; ‘what was
it we were talking about?’
‘I am afraid if you say that, it is sufficient answer to my question,’
said Mr. Beresford, more wounded than he could have supposed possible;
for he wanted to be first with her, though he did not wish it in the
vulgar way that was supposed.
‘You are not to be angry,’ she said, with a deprecating look, laying her
hand softly on his arm; ‘you must not be hard upon me. When they are
boys we wish them to be men, but anxiety grows with their growth; and
now I think sometimes I should be glad to have them boys again.’
‘Boys, boys!’ he exclaimed, with natural impatience, ‘is that all you
think of? Yet there are other interests in the world.’
‘How selfish I am!’ she cried, rousing herself suddenly. ‘That is true.
You must forgive me; but I am so used to talk to you of everything,
whatever is in my heart.’
This melted him once more. ‘Yes,’ he said, ‘we talk to each other of
everything; we have no secrets between us. There is nothing in the world
I would not do for you, nor you, I think, for me. Do you know what
people are thinking about you and me? They think that being so near we
should be nearer; that we might help one another better. That was what I
wanted to ask you. Don’t you think it is so?’
He wanted her to commit herself first, and she was willing enough that
he should commit himself, but not that she should. She was embarrassed,
yet she met his eyes with a half smile.
‘I think it is not a case for heeding what people think. Are we not very
well as we are? How could we be better than as fast friends--friends
through fire and water?’
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