American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American
“'You!' And because he whispered, hissing out the words, they seemed to
gain in intensity of scorn. 'You! She hated you! You who neglected her,
you with your damned eternal politics, you who could never understand
her--love? You who could never give her the things a woman needs and
must have--the warmth--the color--the romance--the poetry of life!
You!--with your cold-blooded humanitarianism! I tell you, she loved
_me!_ Why should I hesitate to avow it to you? It is the sweetest
thing on earth to me, that she loved me! She turned from you to me
because----'
“'Don't go into all that,' I said. 'I heard all about that last
night--from her! Open the locket, and let us see whose face is there!'
“He opened it, and dropped the locket. He reeled against the wall, with
his hands over his face, as if he had been struck a physical blow.
“I picked the toy up and looked at it.
“The face in the locket was neither his face nor mine. It was the face
of--of the man who ran from the pergola and vaulted over the orchard
wall into the woods that summer night a year earlier; the man whom I had
not, for the moment, recognized.
“We stood there, this man who had been my best friend and I, with the
locket between us, and I debated whether to strike him down----”
The narrator paused. And then he said, fixing Dr. Beaulieu with an
intent gaze:
“Should I have struck him down? You, who are a teacher of ethics,
who set yourself up to be, after a fashion, a preacher, a priest, a
spiritual director, tell me, would I have been justified if I had killed
him?”
Dr. Beaulieu seemed to shrink, seemed to contract and grow smaller,
physically, under the other man's look. He opened his mouth as if to
articulate, but for a second or two no word came. And then, regaining
something of his usual poise, he said, although his voice was a bit
husky:
“No! It is for the Creator of life to take life, and no other. Hatred
and strife are disharmony, and bring their own punishment by throwing
the soul out of unity with the spirit of love which rules the universe.”
It sounded stereotyped and emotionless, even in Dr. Beaulieu's own ears,
as he said it; there was a mocking gleam in the eyes of the other man
that spoke of a far more vital and genuine emotion. Dr. Beaulieu licked
his lips and there came a knot in his forehead; beads of perspiration
stood out upon his brow.
“You were right,” said Dr. Beaulieu, “in not striking him down. You were
right in sparing him.”
The bearded man laughed. “I did not say that I spared him,” he said.
Dr. Beaulieu looked a question; a question that, perhaps, he dared
not utter; or at least that he did not care to utter. He had dropped
completely his rôle of spiritual counselor; he regarded his visitor with
an emotion that might have been horror and might have been terror,
or might have been a mixture of the two. The visitor replied to the
unspoken interrogation in the healer's manner.
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