“Undoubtedly. Without exception. Only think, dear Miss Carew, of the
infinite patieuce with which you must tend a child, of the necessity
of seeing with its little eyes and with your own wise ones at the same
time, of bearing without reproach the stabs it innocently inflicts, of
forgiving its hundred little selfishnesses, of living in continual
fear of wounding its exquisite sensitiveness, or rousing its bitter
resentment of injustice and caprice. Think of how you must watch
yourself, check yourself, exercise and develop everything in you that
can help to attract and retain the most jealous love in the world!
Believe me, it is a priceless trial to be a mother. It is a royal
compensation for having been born a woman.”
“Nevertheless,” said Lydia, “I wish I had been born a man. Since you
seem to have thought deeply into these problems, I will venture to
ask you a question. Do you not think that the acquirement of an art
demanding years of careful self-study and training--such as yours,
for example--is also of great educational value? Almost a sufficient
discipline to make one a good mother?”
“Nonsense!” said Mrs. Byron, decidedly. “People come into the world
ready-made. I went on the stage when I was eighteen, and succeeded at
once. Had I known anything of the world, or been four years older, I
should have been weak, awkward, timid, and flat; it would have taken
me twelve years to crawl to the front. But I was young, passionate,
beautiful, and indeed terrible; for I had run away from home two years
before, and been cruelly deceived. I learned the business of the stage
as easily and thoughtlessly as a child learns a prayer; the rest came
to me by nature. I have seen others spend years in struggling with bad
voices, uncouth figures, and diffidence; besides a dozen defects that
existed only in their imaginations. Their struggles may have educated
them; but had they possessed sufficient genius they would have had
neither struggle nor education. Perhaps that is why geniuses are such
erratic people, and mediocrities so respectable. I grant you that I
was very limited when I first came out; I was absolutely incapable of
comedy. But I never took any trouble about it; and by and by, when I
began to mature a little, and to see the absurdity of most of the things
I had been making a fuss about, comedy came to me unsought, as romantic
tragedy had come before. I suppose it would have come just the same if I
had been laboring to acquire it, except that I would have attributed
its arrival to my own exertions. Most of the laborious people think they
have made themselves what they are--much as if a child should think it
had made itself grow.”
“You are the first artist I ever met,” said Lydia, “who did not claim
art as the most laborious of all avocations. They all deny the existence
of genius, and attribute everything to work.”
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