“Just this,” she replied, with passion. “Let me never see you again. The
very foundations of my life are loosened: I have told a lie. I have made
my servant--an honorable man--an accomplice in a lie. We are worse
than you; for even your wild-beast’s handiwork is a less evil than the
bringing of a falsehood into the world. This is what has come to me out
of our acquaintance. I have given you a hiding-place. Keep it. I will
never enter it again.”
Cashel, appalled, shrank back with an expression such as a child wears
when, in trying to steal sweet-meats from a high shelf, it pulls the
whole cupboard down about its ears. He neither spoke nor stirred as she
left the lodge.
Finding herself presently at the castle, she went to her boudoir, where
she found her maid, the French lady, from whose indignant description of
the proceedings below she gathered that the policemen were being regaled
with bread and cheese, and beer; and that the attendance of a surgeon
had been dispensed with, Paradise’s wounds having been dressed skilfully
by Mellish. Lydia bade her send Bashville to the Warren Lodge to see
that there were no strangers loitering about it, and ordered that none
of the female servants should return there until he came back. Then she
sat down and tried not to think. But she could not help thinking; so she
submitted and tried to think the late catastrophe out. An idea that she
had disjointed the whole framework of things by creating a false belief
filled her imagination. The one conviction that she had brought out of
her reading, observing, reflecting, and living was that the concealment
of a truth, with its resultant false beliefs, must produce mischief,
even though the beginning of that mischief might be as inconceivable
as the end. She made no distinction between the subtlest philosophical
misconception and the vulgarest lie. The evil of Cashel’s capture was
measurable, the evil of a lie beyond all measure. She felt none the less
assured of that evil because she could not foresee one bad consequence
likely to ensue from what she had done. Her misgivings pressed heavily
upon her; for her father, a determined sceptic, had taught her his
own views, and she was, therefore, destitute of the consolations which
religion has for the wrongdoer. It was plainly her duty to send for the
policeman and clear up the deception she had practised on him. But
this she could not do. Her will, in spite of her reason, acted in the
opposite direction. And in this paralysis of her moral power she saw the
evil of the lie beginning. She had given it birth, and nature would not
permit her to strangle the monster.
At last her maid returned and informed her that the canaille had gone
away. When she was again alone, she rose and walked slowly to and fro
through the room, forgetting the lapse of time in the restless activity
of her mind, until she was again interrupted, this time by Bashville.
“Well?”
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