The man was on his feet by this time, with his hand in his pocket,
from which he drew a number of pennies. These he counted over carefully
twice. The number was just ten. If there had been only himself to
provide for, it would not have taken long to settle the question of
expenditure. Five cents at an eating-shop where the caterer supplied
himself from the hodge-podge of beggars' baskets would have given him
a breakfast fit for a dog or pig, while the remaining five cents would
have gone for fiery liquor to quench a burning thirst.
But another mouth had too be fed. All at once this poor degraded man
had risen to a sense of responsibility, and was practicing the virtue of
self-denial. A little child was leading him.
He had no toilette to make, no ablutions to practice. There was neither
pail nor wash-basin in his miserable kennel. So, without any delay of
preparation, he caught up the broken mug and went out, as forlorn a
looking wretch as was to be seen in all that region. Almost every house
that he passed was a grog-shop, and his nerves were all unstrung and his
mouth and throat dry from a night's abstinence. But he was able to go
by without a pause. In a few minutes he returned with a loaf of bread, a
pint of milk and a single dried sausage.
What a good breakfast the two made. Not for a long time had the man so
enjoyed a meal. The sight of little Andy, as he ate with the fine relish
of a hungry child, made his dry bread and sausage taste sweeter than
anything that had passed his lips for weeks.
Something more than the food he had taken steadied the man's nerves and
allayed his thirst. Love was beating back into his heart--love for this
homeless wanderer, whose coming had supplied the lost links in the chain
which bound him to the past and called up memories that had slept almost
the sleep of death for years. Good resolutions began forming in his
mind.
“It may be,” he said to himself as new and better impressions than he
had known for a long time began to crowd upon him, “that God has led
this baby here.”
The thought sent a strange thrill to his soul. He trembled with excess
of feeling. He had once been a religious man; and with the old instinct
of dependence on God, he clasped his hands together with a sudden,
desperate energy, and looking up, cried, in a half-despairing,
half-trustful voice,
“Lord, help me!”
No earnest cry like that ever goes up without an instant answer in the
gift of divine strength. The man felt it in a stronger purpose and a
quickening hope. He was conscious of a new power in himself.
“God being my helper,” he said in the silence of his heart, “I will be a
man again.”
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