Adventure stories; Scotland -- History -- 18th century -- Fiction
“I do not turn from you at all,” she said, speaking very carefully. “I
will ever be grateful to my friend that was good to me; I will ever be
his friend in all that I am able. But now that my father James More is
come again, there is a difference to be made, and I think there are
some things said and done that would be better to be forgotten. But I
will ever be your friend in all that I am able, and if that is not all
that . . . . if it is not so much . . . . Not that you will be caring!
But I would not have you think of me too hard. It was true what you
said to me, that I was too young to be advised, and I am hoping you
will remember I was just a child. I would not like to lose your
friendship, at all events.”
She began this very pale; but before she was done, the blood was in her
face like scarlet, so that not her words only, but her face and the
trembling of her very hands, besought me to be gentle. I saw, for the
first time, how very wrong I had done to place the child in that
position, where she had been entrapped into a moment’s weakness, and
now stood before me like a person shamed.
“Miss Drummond,” I said, and stuck, and made the same beginning once
again, “I wish you could see into my heart,” I cried. “You would read
there that my respect is undiminished. If that were possible, I should
say it was increased. This is but the result of the mistake we made;
and had to come; and the less said of it now the better. Of all of our
life here, I promise you it shall never pass my lips; I would like to
promise you too that I would never think of it, but it’s a memory that
will be always dear to me. And as for a friend, you have one here that
would die for you.”
“I am thanking you,” said she.
We stood awhile silent, and my sorrow for myself began to get the upper
hand; for here were all my dreams come to a sad tumble, and my love
lost, and myself alone again in the world as at the beginning.
“Well,” said I, “we shall be friends always, that’s a certain thing.
But this is a kind of farewell, too: it’s a kind of a farewell after
all; I shall always ken Miss Drummond, but this is a farewell to my
Catriona.”
I looked at her; I could hardly say I saw her, but she seemed to grow
great and brighten in my eyes; and with that I suppose I must have lost
my head, for I called out her name again and made a step at her with my
hands reached forth.
She shrank back like a person struck, her face flamed; but the blood
sprang no faster up into her cheeks, than what it flowed back upon my
own heart, at sight of it, with penitence and concern. I found no words
to excuse myself, but bowed before her very deep, and went my ways out
of the house with death in my bosom.
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