Confederate States of America. Army -- Fiction; Historical fiction; United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
“Come, General Cary,” said Lee, “and you, too, gentlemen,—come and
give your hands to Colonel Cleave. Then we will say good night.”
The little ceremony was over, the kindly words were spoken. One by one
the officers saluted and left the tent, Fauquier Cary tarrying in
obedience to a sign from Lee. When all were gone, the General spoke to
Cleave whom he had been watching. “You would like a word alone with—”
His eyes indicated Stafford.
“Yes, General, if I may—”
“I am going across for a moment to General Stuart’s. I will leave you
here until I return.”
He moved toward the tent opening. “Richard,” said Cary,—“Richard, I
have no words—” He dropped his kinsman’s hands; then, in following
Lee, passed within a few feet of Stafford. He made a gesture of
indignation and grief, then went by with closed lips and eyelids that
drooped. Stafford felt the scorn like a breath from hot iron.
The tent was empty now save for the two. “We cannot stop here,” said
Cleave. “I must go farther. Why have you changed? Or are we still
wearing masks?”
“If there is any mask I do not know it,” said the other. “What is
change, and why do we change? We have not found that out. But there is
a fact somewhere, and I have—changed. I will answer what you will not
ask. I love her, yes!—love her so well now that I would have her
happy. I have written to her, and in my letter I said farewell. She
will show it to you if you wish.”
“I do not wish—”
“No,” said Stafford. “I believe that you do not. Richard Cleave, I
have not somehow much feeling left in me, but.... You remember the
evening of Chantilly, when I came to Pelham’s guns? In the darkness I
felt you threatening me.”
“Yes.”
“Well, I did all that you knew of me, and I was all, I suppose, that
you thought me.... There is never any real replacement, any real
atonement. To my mind there is something childish in all our glib
asking for forgiveness. I do not know that I ask you for your
forgiveness. I wish you to know, however, that the old inexcusable
hatred is dead in my soul. If ever the time arrives when you shall say
to yourself ‘I forgive him’—”
“I could say it for myself. I could not say it—not yet—_for the
regiment_.”
Stafford flung out his hand. “I, no more than you, foresaw that ambush
beyond the swamp! I meant to procure what should seem your
disobedience to General Jackson’s orders. I saw nothing else, thought
of nothing else—”
“If you had seen it—”
The silence held a moment; then said the other painfully, “Yes. You
are perhaps right. In what a gulf and hollow man’s being is rooted!...
I will not ask again for what I see would be difficult for any man to
give—Here is General Lee.”
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