Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other StoriesOuida
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Cecil Castlemaine's Gage, Lady Marabout's Troubles, and Other Stories
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Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"Not love you? Great Heaven! Not love you? Near you, I forget my oath,
my vows, my God!--I forget all, save you, whom I adore, as, till I met
you, I adored my Church. Torture endured with you were dearer than
Paradise won alone! Once with you, I have no strength, you bow me to
your will as the wind bows the lime-leaf. Oh! woman, woman! could you
have no mercy, that with crowds round you daily worshipping your
slightest smile, you must needs bow _me_ down before your glance, as you
bow those who have no oaths to bind them, no need to scourge themselves
in midnight solitude for the mere crime of Thought? Had you no mercy,
that with all hearts yours, you must have mine to sear it and destroy
it? Have you not lives enough vowed to you, that you seek to blast mine
for ever? I was content, untroubled, till I met you; no woman's glance
stirred my heart, no woman's eyes haunted my vigils, no woman's voice
came in memory between my soul and prayer! What devil tempted you to
throw your spells over me--could you not leave _one_ man in peace?"
"Ah bah! the tempted love the game of temptation generally full as well
as the tempters!" thought Madame la Marquise, with an inward laugh.
Why did she allow such language to go unrebuked? Why did she, to whom
none dared to breathe any but words the most polished, and love vows the
most honeyed, permit herself to be addressed in such a strain? Possibly
it was very new to her, such energy as this, and such an outbreak of
passion amused her. At any rate she only drew her hands away, and her
brilliant brown eyes filled with tears;--tears _were_ to be had at
Versailles when needed, even her friend Montespan knew how to use them
as the worst weapons against the artillery of the Evêque de Comdom--and
her heart heaved under the filmy lace.
"Ah, Gaston! what words! 'What devil tempted me?' I know scarcely
whether love be angel or devil; he seems either or both! But you love me
little, unless in that name you recognize a plea for every madness and
every thought!"
The scarlet blood flushed over his face, and his eyes shone and gleamed
like fire, while he clenched his hands in a mortal anguish.
"Angel or devil? Ay! which, indeed! The one when it comes to us, the
other when it leaves us! You have roused love in me I shall bear to my
grave; but what gage have I that you give it me back? How do I know but
that even now you are trifling with me, mocking at me, smiling at the
beardless priest who is unlearned in all the gay gallantries of
libertine churchmen and soldierly courtiers? My Heaven! how know, as I
stand beside you, whether you pity or disdain me, love or scorn me?"
The passionate words broke in a torrent from his lips, stirred the
stillness of the summer eve with a fiery anguish little akin to it.
"Do I not love you?"
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