The transparent green of the limes shivered, the young rooks cawed
feebly, and the birds flew out of and nestled with amorous wings in
the golden meadow. Kitty had taken off her straw hat, the sunlight
caressed the delicate plenitudes of the bent neck, the delicate
plenitudes bound with white cambric, cambric swelling gently over the
bosom into the narrow of the waist, cambric fluting to the little
wrist, reedy, translucid hands; cambric falling outwards, and flowing
like a great white flower over the greensward, over the mauve
stocking, and the little shoe set firmly. The ear like a rose leaf; a
fluff of light hair trembling on the curving nape, and the head
crowned with thick brown gold. And her pale marmoreal eyes were
haunted by a yearning look which he had always loved, and which he had
hitherto only found in some beautiful relics of antiquity. She seemed
to him purged, as a Greek statue, of all life's grossness; and as the
women of Botticelli and Mantegna she seemed to him to live in a long
afternoon of unchanging aspiration.
And it seemed to him that he thought of her as impersonally as he
thought of these women, and the fact that she participated in the life
of the flesh neither concerned him nor did it matter. That she lived
in the flesh instead of in marble was an accident. He smiled at the
paradox, for he had recovered from the fears of overnight and was
certain that even the longing to strain her in his arms was only part
of the impulse which compels our lips to the rose, which buries our
hands in the earth when we lie at length, which fills our souls with
longing for white peaks and valleys when the great clouds tower and
shine.
And that evening, as he sat in his study, his thoughts suddenly said:
'She is the symbol of my inner life.' Surprised and perplexed, he
sought the meaning of the words. He was forced to admit that her
beauty had penetrated his soul. But was it not natural for him to
admire all beautiful things, especially things on a certain plane of
idea? He had admired other women: in what then did his admiration for
this woman differ from that, which others had drawn from him? In his
admiration for other women there had always been a sense of repulsion;
this feeling of repulsion seemed to be absent from his admiration for
Kitty.... He hardly perceived any sex in her; she was sexless as a
work of art, as the women of the first Italian painters, as some Greek
statues.
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