'Don't talk; I want to think,' and she, after a little gasp of
astonished indignation, had relapsed languorous into her corner, her
head propped on her hand, and her profile alone visible to her cousin.
He saw, in the brief glance that he vouchsafed her, that her red mouth
looked more than usually sulky, in fact not unlike the mouth of a
child on the point of tears, a very invitation to inquiry, but, more
from indifference than deliberate wisdom, he was not disposed to take
up the challenge. He too sat silent, his thoughts flying over the
day, weighing the consequences of his own action, trying to forecast
the future. He was far away from Eve, and she knew it. At times he
enraged and exasperated her almost beyond control. His indifference
was an outrage on her femininity. She knew him to be utterly beyond
her influence: taciturn when he chose, ill-tempered when he chose,
exuberant when he chose, rampageous, wild; insulting to her at moments;
domineering whatever his mood, and regardless of her wishes; yet at the
same time unconscious of all these things. Alone with her now, he had
completely forgotten her presence by his side.
Her voice broke upon his reflections,--
'Thinking of the Islands, Julian?' and her words joining like
a cogwheel smoothly on to the current of his mind, he answered
naturally,--
'Yes,'
'I thought as much. I have something to tell you. You may not be
interested. I am no longer engaged to Miloradovitch.'
'Since when?'
'Since yesterday evening. Since you left me, and ran away into the
woods. I was angry, and vented my anger on him.'
'Was that fair?'
'He has you to thank. It has happened before--with others.'
Roused for a second from his absorption, he impatiently shrugged his
shoulders, and turned his back, and looked out over the sea. Eve was
again silent, brooding and resentful in her corner. Presently he turned
towards her, and said angrily, reverting to the Islands,--
'You are the vainest and most exorbitant woman I know. You resent one's
interest in anything but yourself.'
As she did not answer, he added,--
'How sulky you look; it's very unbecoming.'
Was no sense of proportion or of responsibility ever to weigh upon her
beautiful shoulders? He was irritated, yet he knew that his irritation
was half-assumed, and that in his heart he was no more annoyed by her
fantasy than by the fantasy of Herakleion. They matched each other;
their intangibility, their instability, were enough to make a man
shake his fists to Heaven, yet he was beginning to believe that their
colour and romance--for he never dissociated Eve and Herakleion in his
mind--were the dearest treasures of his youth. He turned violently and
amazingly upon her.
'Eve, I sometimes hate you, damn you; but you are the rainbow of my
days.'
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