'I went once to Aphros, more than a year ago; you remember. They
asked me then, through Tsigaridis, whether I would champion them
if they needed championship. I said I would. Father was very angry.
He is incomprehensibly cynical about the Islands, so cynical that I
have been tempted to think him merely mercenary, anxious to live at
peace with Herakleion for the sake of his profits. He is as cynical as
Malteios, or any stay-in-power politician here. He read me a lecture
and called the people a lot of rebellious good-for-nothings. Eve, what
do I care? One thing is true, one thing is real: those people suffer.
Everything on earth is empty, except pain. Paul suffered, so much that
he preferred to die. But a whole people doesn't die. I went away to
England, and I put Herakleion aside, but at the bottom of my heart I
never thought of anything else; I knew I was bound to those people, and
I lived, I swear to you, with the sole idea that I should come back,
and that this adventure of rescue would happen some day exactly as it
is happening now. I thought of Kato and of Tsigaridis as symbolical,
almost mythological beings; my tutelary deities; Kato vigorous, and
Tsigaridis stern. Eve, I would rather die than read disappointment in
that man's eyes. I never made him many promises, but he must find me
better than my word.'
He got up and walked once or twice up and down the room, beating his
fist against his palm and saying,--
'Whatever good I do in my life, will be done in the Islands.'
He came back and stood by Eve.
'Eve, yesterday morning when I rode over the hills I saw the Islands
lying out in the sea.... I thought of father, cynical and indifferent,
and of Stavridis, a self-seeker. I wondered whether I should grow into
that. I thought that in illusion lay the only loveliness.'
'Ah, how I agree!' she said fervently.
He dropped on his knees again beside her, and she put her fingers
lightly on his hair.
'When Tsigaridis came, you were telling me that you believed in
me--Heaven knows why. For my part, I only believe that one can
accomplish when one has faith in a cause, and is blind to one's own
fate. And I believe that the only cause worthy of such faith, is the
redemption of souls from pain. I set aside all doubt. I will listen to
no argument, and I will walk straight towards the object I have chosen.
If my faith is an illusion, I will make that illusion into a reality by
the sheer force of my faith.'
He looked up at Eve, whose eyes were strangely intent on him.
'You see,' he said, fingering the fringe of her Spanish shawl,
'Herakleion is my battleground, and if I am to tilt against windmills
it must be in Herakleion. I have staked out Herakleion for my own, as
one stakes out a claim in a gold-mining country. The Islands are the
whole adventure of youth for me.'
'And what am I?' she murmured to him.
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