Was she to blame for her cruelty, her selfishness, her disregard for
truth? was she, not evil, but only alien? to be forgiven all for the
sake of the rarer, more distant flame? Was the standard of cardinal
virtues set by the world the true, the ultimate standard? Was it
possible that Eve made part of a limited brotherhood? was indeed a
citizen of some advanced state of such perfection that this world's
measures and ideals were left behind and meaningless? meaningless
because unnecessary in such a realm of serenity?
Aphros, then--the liberty of Aphros--and Aphros meant to him far more
than merely Aphros--that was surely a lovely and desirable thing, a
worthy aim, a high beacon? If Eve cared nothing for the liberty of
Aphros, was it because in _her_ world (he was by now convinced of its
existence) there was no longer any necessity to trouble over such aims,
liberty being as natural and unmeditated as the air in the nostrils?
(Not that this would ever turn him from his devotion; at most he could
look upon Aphros as a stage upon the journey towards that higher
aim--the stage to which he and his like, who were nearly of the elect,
yet not of them, might aspire. And if the day should ever come when
disillusion drove him down; when, far from becoming a citizen of Eve's
far sphere, he should cease to be a citizen even of Aphros and should
become a citizen merely of the world, no longer young, no longer
blinded by ideals, no longer nearly a poet, but merely a grown, sober
man--then he would still keep Aphros as a bright memory of what might
have been, of the best he had grasped, the possibility which in the
days of youth had not seemed too extravagantly unattainable.)
But in order to keep his hold upon this world of Eve's, which in his
inner consciousness he already recognised as the most valuable rift
of insight ever vouchsafed to him, it was necessary that he should
revolutionise every ancient gospel and reputable creed. The worth
of Eve was to him an article of faith. His intimacy with her was a
privilege infinitely beyond the ordinary privilege of love. Whatever
she might do, whatever crime she might commit, whatever baseness she
might perpetrate, her ultimate worth, the core, the kernel, would
remain to him unsullied and inviolate. This he knew blindly, seeing it
as the mystic sees God; and knew it the more profoundly that he could
have defended it with no argument of reason.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account