He accepted the words, which he had heard often from her lips, dreamily
as part of his last, deliberate evening, so losing himself in his
dreams that he almost failed to notice when the music died and the
notes of Kato's voice slid from the recitative of her peasant songs
into conversation with himself. She left the music-stool and came
towards him where he sat on the floor.
'Julian,' she said, looking down at him, 'your cousin Eve, who is full
of perception, says you are so primitive that the very furniture is
irksome to you and that you dispense with it as far as you can. I know
you prefer the ground to a sofa.'
He became shy, as he instantly did when the topic of his own
personality was introduced. He felt dimly that Eve, who remorselessly
dragged him from the woods into the glare of sunlight, alone had the
privilege. At the same time he recognised her methods of appropriating
a characteristic, insignificant in itself, and of building it up,
touching it with her own peculiar grace and humour until it became
a true and delicate attribute, growing into life thanks to her
christening of it; a method truly feminine, exquisitely complimentary,
carrying with it an insinuation faintly exciting, and creating a link
quite separately personal, an understanding, almost an obligation to
prove oneself true to her conception....
'So you are leaving us?' said Kato, 'you are going to live among other
standards, other influences, "_dont je ne connais point la puissance
sur votre coeur_." How soon will it be before you forget? And how soon
before you return? We want you here, Julian.'
'For the Islands?' he asked.
'For the Islands, and may I not say,' said Kato, spreading her hands
with a musical clinking of all her bangles, 'for ourselves also? How
soon will it be before you forget the Islands?' she forced herself to
ask, and then, relapsing, 'Which will fade first in your memory, I
wonder--the Islands? or Kato?'
'I can't separate you in my mind,' he said, faintly ill at ease.
'It is true that we have talked of them by the hour,' she answered,
'have we talked of them so much that they and I are entirely
identified? Do you pay me the compliment of denying me the mean
existence of an ordinary woman?'
He thought that by answering in the affirmative he would indeed be
paying her the greatest compliment that lay within his power, for he
would be raising her to the status of a man and a comrade. He said,--
'I never believed, before I met you, that a woman could devote herself
so whole-heartedly to her patriotism. We have the Islands in common
between us; and, as you know, the Islands mean more than mere Islands
to me: a great many things to which I could never give a name. And
I am glad, yes, so glad, that our friendship has been, in a way, so
impersonal--as though I were your disciple, and this flat my secret
school, from which you should one day discharge me, saying "Go!"'
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