Chantemerle : $b A romance of the Vendean WarBroster, D. K. (Dorothy Kathleen)
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Chantemerle : $b A romance of the Vendean War
Broster, D. K. (Dorothy Kathleen)
France -- History -- Revolution, 1789-1799 -- Fiction; France -- History -- Wars of the Vendée, 1793-1832 -- Fiction
Had he known, Lucienne’s heartache was at once a simple and a complex
suffering. It was simple, even commonplace, in that it arose from the
fact that she was in love with a man whom she could not marry. But it
was complicated by several other anguishes, such as the knowledge that
she was deceiving the betrothed whom, had there not been that other,
she fancied she could have loved so well, whom as it was she trusted
and admired, and with whom, after his return from Brittany, she kept
up a regular correspondence. Then there was the constant companionship
with his mother, to whom also she was obliged to show a deceitful
bearing, and who would always be talking of him, especially during
that time of anxiety when they knew him to be in danger in Brittany.
Last and sharpest of all, there was the wild, agonising regret and
shame for her own conduct in that scene of farewell with Louis, for
having at that supreme moment irretrievably cheapened herself in his
eyes, so that, in all probability, she had slain his love for her—a
passion which she had not enough altruism to wish dead. For Lucienne
had gradually been building her lover a pedestal, whose base was his
withstanding of her pleading in that hour. Since Saint Lucian’s Day
their parts had been reversed, and it was Louis, not she, who stood
for honour now. What must he have thought of her even at the time
. . . and afterwards! So she tortured herself into thinking the
absence of any letter or message from him a proof that he no longer
cared for her—forgetting that the elevated rôle she had assigned him
would have precluded him from writing in any case. And the more she
exalted him and conceived him now cold to her, the more did her
passion increase, so that he was always the one stable thought in her
mind, the one figure always before her eyes—except when the presence
of strangers distracted her. And the thought of Louis, barbed with
this humiliating remorse, having become a veritable torture to her,
she ended by craving for this distraction and welcoming it, when it
came, with all her heart.
Meanwhile Christmas approached, with its promise of festivities, and
the neighbourhood was not more astonished than was Miss Trenchard
when Mr Harry Trenchard announced his intention of giving a ball on
Christmas Eve. A bachelor, he had never before thus entered the lists.
Miss Trenchard was not exactly displeased; the embers of ancient
gaiety still smouldered in her respectable breast, and she thought it
not unbecoming that Henry should exhibit the resources of his mansion
to the public. But all her questions, discreet or indiscreet, failed
to wrest from her nephew the motive of his sudden outburst of
hospitality. At Ashley Court that motive was guessed at, though not
formulated in speech.
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