Domestic fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Family -- England -- Fiction
In fact he had never been well since a terrible tempest, when he had
worked hard and exposed himself to save life. I never could hear the
particulars, for Lawrence was away, and Clarence could not write about it
himself, having been prostrated by one of those chills so perilous in hot
countries; but from all I have heard, no resident in Hong-Kong would have
believed that Mr. Winslow’s courage could ever have been called in
question. He ought to have come home immediately after that attack of
fever; for the five years were over, and his work nearly done; but there
was need to consolidate his achievements, and a strong man is only too
apt to trifle with his health. We might have guessed something by the
languor and brevity of his letters, but we thought the absence of detail
owing to his expectation of soon seeing us; and had gone on for months
expecting the announcement of a speedy return, when an unexpected shock
fell on us. Our dear mother was still an active woman, with few signs of
age about her, when, in her sixty-seventh year, she was almost suddenly
taken from us by an attack of gout in the stomach.
I feel as if I had not done her justice, and as if she might seem stern,
unsympathising, and lacking in tenderness. Yet nothing could be further
from the truth. She was an old-fashioned mother, who held it her duty to
keep up her authority, and counted over-familiarity and indulgence as
sins. To her ‘the holy spirit of discipline was the beginning of
wisdom,’ and to make her children godly, truthful, and honourable was a
much greater object than to win their love. And their love she had, and
kept to a far higher degree than seems to be the case with those who
court affection by caresses and indulgence. We knew that her approval
was of a generous kind, we prized enthusiastically her rare betrayals of
her motherly tenderness, and we depended on her in a manner we only
realised in the desolation, dreariness, and helplessness that fell upon
us, when we knew that she was gone. She had not, nor had any of us,
understood that she was dying, and she had uttered only a few words that
could imply any such thought. On hearing that there was a letter from
Clarence, she said, ‘Poor Clarence! I should like to have seen him. He
is a good boy after all. I’ve been hard on him, but it will all be right
now. God Almighty bless him!’
That was the only formal blessing she left among us. Indeed, the last
time I saw her was with an ordinary good-night at the foot of the stairs.
Emily said she was glad that I had not to carry with me the remembrance
of those paroxysms of suffering. My dear Emily had alone the whole force
of that trial—or shall I call it privilege? Martyn did not reach home
till some hours after all was over, poor boy.
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