England -- Fiction; Gothic fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction
How many letters he began, how many he even finished, and rejected, I
need not tire you by telling. Some were composed in the first, others in
the third person. Not one satisfied him. Here was the man of a million
and more, who would dash off a note to his stock-broker, to buy or sell
a hundred thousand pounds' worth of stock--who would draft a resolution
of the bank of which he was the chairman, directing an operation which
would make men open their eyes, without the tremor of a nerve or the
hesitation of a moment--unmanned, helpless, distracted in the endeavour
to write a note to a young and inexperienced girl!
O beautiful sex! what a triumph is here! O Love! what fools will you not
make of us poor masculine wiseacres! The letter he dispatched was in
these terms. I daresay he had torn better ones to pieces:--
"DEAR MISS ARDEN,--I had hoped that my profound contrition might
have atoned for a momentary indiscretion--the declaration, though in
terms the most respectful, of feelings which I had not self-command
sufficient to suppress, and which had for nearly a year remained
concealed in my own breast. I am sure, Miss Arden, that you are
incapable of a gratuitous cruelty. Have I not sworn that one word to
recall the remembrance of that, to me, all but fatal madness shall
never escape my lips, in your presence? May I not entreat that you
will forget it, that you will forbear to pass upon me the agonising
sentence of exclusion? You shall never again have to complain of my
uttering one word that the merest acquaintance, who is permitted the
happiness of conversing with you, might not employ. You shall never
regret your forbearance. I shall never cease to bless you for it;
and whatever decision you arrive at, it shall be respected by me as
sacred law. I shall never cease to reverence and bless the hand that
spares or--afflicts me. May I be permitted this one melancholy hope,
may I be allowed to interpret your omitting to answer this miserable
letter as a concession of its prayer? Unless forbidden, I will
endeavour to construe your silence as oblivion.
"I have the honour to remain, dear Miss Arden, with deep compunction
and respect, but not altogether without hope in your mercy,
"Yours the most unhappy and distracted man in England,
"WALTER LONGCLUSE."
Mr. Longcluse sealed this letter in its envelope, and addressed it. He
would have liked to send it that moment, by his servant, but an odd
shyness prevented. He did not wish his servants to conjure and put their
heads together over it; he could not endure the idea; so with his own
hand he dropped it in the post. Somewhat in the style of the old novel
was this composition of Mr. Longcluse's--a little theatrical, and, one
would have fancied, even affected; yet never was man more desperately
sincere.
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