He was breathing rather hard, and his words were tripping. Managing his
voice ill, the tones of it ran away from bass to shrill treble. She saw
it all at a glance, and realised that Martin had been blundering on, in
pure ignorance and pure love, all these weary weeks. She sat down
silently and her mind moved like light along the wide gamut of fifty
emotions in a second. Anger and sorrow strove together,--anger with Clem
and his callous, cynic silence, sorrow for the panting wretch before
her. Chris opened her mouth to speak, then realised where her flying
thoughts had taken her and that, as yet, Martin Grimbal had said
nothing. Her unmaidenly attitude and the sudden reflection that she was
about to refuse one before he had asked her, awoke a hysteric
inclination to laugh, then a longing to cry. But all the anxious-visaged
man before her noted was a blush that waved like auroral light from the
girl's neck to her cheek, from her cheek to her forehead. That he saw,
and thought it was love, and thanked the Lord in his clumsy fashion
aloud.
"God be praised! I do think you guess--I do think you guess! But oh, my
dear, my dear, you don't know what 's in my heart for you. My little
pearl of a Chris, can you care for such a bear of a man? Can you let me
labour all my life long to make your days good to you? I love you so--I
do. I never thought when the moment came I should find tongue to speak
it, but I have; and now I could say it fifty thousand times. I'd just be
proud to tie your shoe-string, Chris, my dear, and be your old slave
and--Chris! my Chris! I've hurt you; I've made you cry! Was I--was I all
wrong? Don't, don't--I'll go--Oh, my darling one, God knows I
wouldn't--"
He broke off blankly and stood half sorrowful, half joyous. He knew he
had no right as yet to go to the comfort of the girl now sobbing beside
him, but hope was not dead. And Chris, overcome by this outpouring of
love, now suffered very deep sorrow, while she turned away from him and
hid her face and wept. The poor distracted fool still failed to guess
the truth, for he knew tint tears are the outcome of happiness as well
as misery. He waited, open-mouthed, he murmured something--God knows
what--then he went close and thought to touch her waist, but feared and
laid his hand gently on her shoulder.
"Don't 'e!" she said; and he began to understand and to struggle with
himself to lessen her difficulty.
"Forgive me--forgive me if you can, Chris. Was I all wrong? Then I ought
to have known better--but even an old stick like me--before you, Chris.
Somehow I--but don't cry. I wouldn't have brought the tears to your eyes
for all the world--dense idiot I am--"
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