The girl listened to this utterance, and it filled her with a sort of
weird wonder as at a revelation of heredity. Mrs. Hicks had ever been
taciturn before her, and now this rapid outpouring of thoughts and
phrases echoed like the very speech of the dead. Thus had Clement
talked, and the girl dimly marvelled without understanding. The
impression passed, and there awoke in Chris a sudden determination to
whisper to this bereaved woman what she could not even tell her own
mother. A second thought had probably changed her intention, but she did
not wait for any second thought. She acted on impulse, rose, put her
arms round the widow, and murmured her secret. The other started
violently and broke her motionless posture before this intelligence.
"Christ! And he knawed--my son?"
"He knawed."
"Then you needn't whisper it. There's awnly us three here."
"An' no others must knaw. You'll never tell--never? You swear that?"
"Me tell! No, no. To think! Then theer's real sorrow for you, tu, poor
soul--real, grawin' sorrow tu. Differ'nt from mine, but real enough.
Yet--"
She relapsed into a stone-like repose. No facial muscle moved, but the
expression of her mind appeared in her eyes and there gradually grew a
hungry look in them--as of a starving thing confronted with food. The
realisation of these new facts took a long time. No action accompanied
it; no wrinkle deepened; no line of the dejected figure lifted; but when
she spoke again her voice had greatly changed and become softer and very
tremulous.
"O my dear God! 't will be a bit of Clement! Had 'e thought o' that?"
Then she rose suddenly to her feet and expression came to her face--a
very wonderful expression wherein were blended fear, awe, and something
of vague but violent joy--as though one suddenly beheld a loved ghost
from the dead.
"'T is as if all of un weern't quite lost! A li'l left--a cheel of his!
Wummon! You'm a holy thing to me--a holy thing evermore! You'm bearin'
sunshine for your summertime and my winter--if God so wills!"
Then she lifted up her voice and cried to Chris with a strange cry, and
knelt down at her feet and kissed her hands and stroked them.
"Go to un," she said, leaping up; "go to Clem, an' tell un, in his ear,
that I knaw. It'll reach him if you whisper it. His soul ban't so very
far aways yet. Tell un I knaw, tu--you an' me. He'd glory that I knawed.
An' pray henceforrard, as I shall, for a bwoy. Ax God for a bwoy--ax
wi'out ceasin' for a son full o' Clem. Our sorrows might win to the
Everlasting Ear this wance. But, for Christ's sake, ax like wan who has
a right to, not fawning an' humble."
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