Great Britain -- Politics and government -- 1800-1837 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Political fiction
And by-and-by the arm tightened its hold and gripped her convulsively,
the sobs grew deeper and shook the worn form at each respiration; and
presently, “Ah, God, what will become of me?” burst from the depths of
the poor quaking heart, too proud hitherto to make its fear known.
“What will become of me?”
That cry pierced Mary like a knife, but its confession of weakness made
mother and daughter one. Her feeble arms could not avert the approach
of the dark shadow, whose coming terrified though it could not change.
But what human love could do, what patient self-forgetfulness might
teach, she vowed that she would do and teach; and what clinging hands
might compass to delay the end, her hands should compass. When Miss
Sibson’s message, informing her that it was time to return, was brought
to her, she shook her head, smiling, and locked the door. “I shall be
your nurse, after all!” she said. “I shall not leave you.” And before
midnight, with a brave contentment, for which Lady Sybil’s following
eyes were warrant, she had taken possession of the room and all its
contents; she had tidied as much as it was good to tidy, she had knelt
to heat the milk or brush the hearth, she had smoothed the pillow, and
sworn a score of times that nothing, no Sir Robert, no father, no force
should tear her from this her duty, this her joy—until the end.
No memory of her dull childhood, or of the days of labour and servitude
which she owed to the dying woman, no thought of the joys of wealth and
youth which she had lost through her, rose to mar the sincerity of her
love. Much less did such reflections trouble her on whose flighty mind
they should have rested so heavily. So far indeed was this from being
the case, that when Mary stooped to some office which the mother’s
fastidiousness deemed beneath her, “How can you do that?” Lady Sybil
cried peevishly. “I’ll not have you do it! Do you hear me, girl? Let
some servant see to it! What else are they for!”
“But I used to do it every day at Clapham,” Mary answered cheerfully.
She had not spoken before, aware of the reproach which her words
conveyed, she could have bitten her tongue.
But Lady Sybil did not wince. “Then why did you do it?” she retorted,
“Why did you do it? Why were you so foolish as to stoop to such things?
I’m sure you didn’t get your poor spirit from me! And Vermuyden was as
stiff as a poker! But there! I remember the prince saying once that
ladies went out of fashion with hoops, and gentlemen with snuffboxes.
You make me think he was right. Oh, clumsy!” she continued, raising her
voice, “now you are turning the light on my face! Do you wish to see me
hideous?”
Mary moved it. “Is that better, mother?” she asked.
Lady Sybil cast a resentful glance at her. “There, there, let it be!”
she said. “You can’t help it. You’re like your father. He could never
do anything right! I suppose I am doomed to have none but helpless
people about me.”
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