Great Britain -- Politics and government -- 1800-1837 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Political fiction
“But not by her!” he cried, taking her up quickly. “Not by her act!” he
repeated sternly, “or with her will! And what has she done that I
should forgive? I, whose life she blighted, whose pride she stabbed,
whose hopes she crushed? Whom she left solitary, wifeless, childless
through the years of my strength, the years that she cannot, that no
one can give back to me? Through the long summer days that were a
weariness, and the dark winter days that were a torpor? Yet—yet I could
forgive her, Lady Lansdowne, I could forgive her, I do forgive her
that!”
“Sir Robert!”
“That, all that!” he continued, with a gesture and in a tone of
bitterness which harmonised but ill with the words he uttered. “All
that she ever did amiss to me I forgive her. But—but the child’s wrong,
never! Had she relented indeed, at the last, had she of her own motion,
of her own free will given me back my daughter, had she repented and
undone the wrong, then—but no matter! she did not! She did not one,” he
repeated with agitation, “she did not any of these things. And I ask,
what has she done that I should forgive her?”
She did not answer him at once, and when she did it was in a tone so
low as to be barely audible.
“I cannot answer that,” she said. “But is it the only question? Is
there not another question, Sir Robert—not what she has done, or left
undone, but what you—forgive me and bear with me—have left undone, or
done amiss? Are you—you clear of all spot or trespass, innocent of all
blame or erring? When she came to you a young girl, a young bride—and,
oh, I remember her, the sunshine was not brighter, she was a child of
air rather than of earth, so fair and heedless, so capricious, and yet
so innocent!—did you in the first days never lose patience? Never fail
to make allowance? Never preach when wisdom would have smiled, never
look grave when she longed for lightness, never scold when it had been
better to laugh? Did you never forget that she was a score of years
younger than you, and a hundred years more frivolous? Or”—Lady
Lansdowne’s tone was a mere whisper now—“if you are clear of all
offence against her, are you clear of all offence against any, of all
trespass? Have you no need to be forgiven, no need, no——”
Her voice died away into silence. She left the appeal unfinished.
Sir Robert paced the room. And other scenes than those on which he had
taught himself to brood, other days than those later days of wasted
summers and solitary winters, of dulness and decay, rose to his memory.
Sombre moods by which it had pleased him—at what a cost!—to make his
displeasure known. Sarcastic words, warrant for the facile retort that
followed, curt judgments and ill-timed reproofs; and always the sense
of outraged dignity to freeze the manner and embitter the tone.
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