Great Britain -- Politics and government -- 1800-1837 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Political fiction
“In part, I can. But not altogether. Will you explain? I—I think,” she
continued with a movement of her flower-like head, that for gentle
dignity he had never seen excelled, “I have a right to an explanation.”
“You know of what Sir Robert accused me?”
“Yes.”
“Am I to justify him? You know what was the difference which came
between us, which first divided us? And what I thought right then, I
still think right. Am I to abandon it? You know what I bore. Am I to
live on the bounty of one who once thought so ill of me, and may think
as ill again? Of one who, differing from me, punished me so cruelly? Am
I to sink into dependence, to sacrifice my judgment, to surrender my
political liberty into the hands of one who——”
“Of my father!” she said gravely.
He could not, so reminded, say what he had been going to say, but he
assented by a movement of the head. And after an interval of silence,
“I cannot,” he cried passionately, “I cannot, even to secure my
happiness, run that risk!”
She looked from the window of the carriage, and in a voice which shook
a little, “No,” she said, “I suppose not.”
He was silent and he suffered. He dared not meet her eyes. Why had she
sought this interview? Why had she chosen to torment him? Ah, if she
knew, if she only knew what pain she was inflicting upon him!
But apparently she did not know. For by and by she spoke again. “No,”
she said. “I suppose not. Yet have you thought”—and now there was a
more decided tremor in her voice—“that that which you surrender is not
all there is at stake? Your independence is precious to you, and you
have a right, Mr. Vaughan, to purchase it even at the cost of your
happiness. But have you a right to purchase it at the cost of
another’s? At the cost of mine? Have you thought of my happiness?” she
continued, “or only of yours—and of yourself? To save your
independence—shall I say, to save your pride?—you are willing to set
your love aside. But have you asked me whether I am willing to pay my
half of the price? My heavier half? Whether I am willing to set my
happiness aside? Have you thought of—me at all?”
If he had not, then, when he saw how she looked at him, with what eyes,
with what love, as she laid her hand on his arm, he had been more than
man if he had resisted her long! But he still fought with himself, and
with her; staring with hard, flushed face straight before him, telling
himself that by all that was left to him he must hold.
“I think, I think,” she said gently, yet with dignity, “you have not
thought of me.”
“But your father—Sir Robert——”
“He is an ogre, of course,” she cried in a tone suddenly changed. “But
you should have thought of that before, sir,” she continued, tears and
laughter in her voice. “Before you travelled with me on the coach!
Before you saved my life! Before you—looked at me! For you can never
take it back. You can never give me myself again. I think that you must
take me!”
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