Great Britain -- Politics and government -- 1800-1837 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Political fiction
And she saw that he meant no insult, that the words burst from him
spontaneously. But not the less for that was their effect on her. She
turned white, her very heart seeming to stop, she appeared to be about
to swoon. While he, forgetting all but her shrinking beauty, devoured
her with his eyes.
Until he remembered himself. Then he turned from her to the window.
“Forgive me!” he cried. “I did not know what I said. You came on me so
suddenly; you looked so beautiful——”
He stopped; he could not go on.
And she was trembling from head to foot; but she made an effort to
escape back to the commonplace. “I came,” she stammered—it was clear
that she hardly knew what she was saying—“Miss Sibson told me to come
to say that I—I was sorry, sir, that I—I misjudged you yesterday.”
“Yesterday? Yesterday?” he cried, almost angrily. “Bah, it is an age
since yesterday!”
She could make no answer to that, though she knew well what he meant.
If she answered him it was only by suffering him to gaze at her in an
eloquent silence—a silence in which his eyes cried again and again,
“How beautiful you are!” While her eyes, downcast, under trembling
lashes, her heart beaten down, defenceless, cried only for “Quarter,
quarter!”
They were yards apart. The table, and on it Miss Sibson’s squat workbox
and a pile of longcloth, was between them. Miss Sibson herself could
have desired nothing more proper. And yet—
_Farewell, farewell, my faithless shield,
Thy lord at length is forced to yield.
Vain, vain is every outward care,
The foe’s within and triumphs there!_
It was all over. In her ears would ring for ever his words of
worship—the cry of the man to the woman, “How beautiful you are!” She
would thrill with pleasure when she thought of them, and burn with
shame, and never, never, never be the same again! And for him, with
that cry forced from him, love had become present, palpable, real, and
the idea of marriage real also; an idea to be withstood, to be
combated, to be treated as foolish, Byronic, impossible. But an idea
which would not leave him any more than the image of her gentle beauty,
indelibly stamped on his brain, would leave him. He might spend some
days or some weeks in doubt and wretchedness. But from that moment the
odds were against him—he was young, and passion had never had her way
with him—as seriously against him as against the army that with spies
and traitors in its midst moves against an united foe.
Not a word that was _convenant_ had passed between them, though so much
had passed, when a hasty footstep crossed the forecourt, and stopped at
the door. The knocker fell sharply twice, and recalled them to
realities.
“I—I must go,” she faltered, wresting herself from the spell of his
eyes. “I have said what I—I hope you understand, and I—it is time I
went.” How her heart was beating!
“Oh, no, no!”
“Yes, I must go!”
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