Happy! It was not a word in Miss Gascoigne's dictionary. But she looked
with a certain tenderness at the fond little woman who had loved her,
borne with her, never in the smallest degree resisted her since they
were girls together. It was a strange tie, perhaps finding its origin in
something deeper than itself--in that dead captain, whose old-fashioned
miniature still lay in poor Maria's drawer--the fierce, handsome face,
proving that, had he lived, he might have been as great a tyrant over
her as his sister Henrietta. Still, however it arose, the bond was
there, and nothing but death could ever break it between these two
lonely women.
"Come, then, Maria, we shall share our last crust together. You, at
least, have never wronged me. Come away."
Gathering her dress about her with a tragical air, and plucking it, as
she passed Mrs. Grey, as though the possible touch were pollution, Aunt
Henrietta swept from the room; Aunt Maria, after one deprecatory look
behind, as if to say, "You see I can't do otherwise," slowly following.
And so it was all over--safely over--this great change, which, however
longed for, had not been contemplated as a possibility one hour before.
It had arranged itself out of the most trivial elements, as great events
often do. There could be no question that every body felt it to be the
best thing, and every body was thankful; and yet Christian watched her
husband with a little uncertainty until she heard him heave a sigh of
relief.
"Yes, I am sure it was right to be done, and I am glad it is done. Are
not you, Christian?"
"Oh, so glad! I hope it is not wicked in me, but I am so glad!"
"Why--to have me all to yourself?" said he, smiling at her energy.
A strange, unwonted thrill ran through Christian's heart as she
recognized, beyond possibility of doubt, that this was the secret source
of her delight--of the feeling as if a new existence were opening before
her--as if the heavy weight which had oppressed her were taken off, and
she could move through those old gloomy rooms, which had once struck a
chill through her whole being, with a sense as if she were as light as
air, and as merry as a bird in the spring.
To have the Lodge made into a real home--a home altogether her own--and
emptied of all but those who were really her own, with a glad welcome
for any visitors, but still only as visitors, coming and going, and
never permanently interfering with the sweet, narrow circle of the
family fireside; to be really mistress in her own house; to have her
time to herself; to spend long mornings with the children; long evenings
alone with her husband, even if he sat for hours poring over his big
books and did not speak a word--oh, how delicious it would be!
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