Aunt Henrietta had spent the whole night, except a brief space for
sleeping, in thinking over and talking over her duties and her wrongs,
the two being mixed up together in inextinguishable confusion. Almost
any subject, after being churned up in such a nature as hers for twelve
mortal hours, would at the end look quite different from what it did at
first, or what it really was. And so, with all honesty of purpose, and
with the firmest conviction that it was the only means of saving her
brother-in-law and his family from irretrievable misery and disgrace,
poor Miss Gascoigne had broken through all her habits, risen, dressed,
and breakfasted at an unearthly hour, and there she stood at the
Lodge door at nine in the morning, determined to "do her duty," as she
expressed it, but looking miserably pale, and vainly restraining her
agitation so as to keep up a good appearance "before the servants."
"That will do, Barker. You need not disturb the master; I came at this
early hour just for a little chat with your mistress and the children."
And then entering the parlor, she sat down opposite to Christian to take
breath.
Miss Gascoigne was really to be pitied. Mere gossip she enjoyed; it was
her native element, and she had plunged into this matter of Sir Edwin
Uniacke with undeniable eagerness. But now, when it might be not gossip,
but disgrace, her terror overpowered her. For disgrace, discredit in the
world's eye, was the only form the matter took to this worldly woman,
who rarely looked on things except on the outside. Guilt, misery, and
their opposites, which alone give strength to battle with them,
were things too deep to be fathomed in the slightest degree by Miss
Gascoigne.
Therefore, as her looks showed, she was not so much shocked as simply
frightened, and had come to the Lodge with a frantic notion of hushing
up the matter somehow, whatever it was. Her principal terror was, not so
much the sin itself, but that the world might hear of it.
"You see, Mrs. Grey, I am come again," said she, very earnestly. "In
spite of every thing, I have come back to advise with you. I am ready
to overlook everything, to try and conceal everything. Maria and I have
been turning over in our minds all sorts of plans to get you away till
this has blown over--call it going to the seaside, to the country with
Arthur--any thing, in short, just that you may leave Avonsbridge."
"I leave Avonsbridge? Why?"
"Yon know why. When you had a lover before your marriage, of whom you
did not tell your husband or his friends--when this gentleman afterward
meets you, writes to you--I saw the letter--"
"You saw the letter!"
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