England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Love stories
"He makes me think of John," so Cicely's thoughts ran; "he has the same
kind understanding eyes--brown, like John's--and the same gentle way
with him that John had. I think he knew how lonely it feels for me
sometimes, and what a big responsibility life is, for one little scrap
of a woman like me."
And, indeed, strangely enough, thoughts not at all unlike these, were
passing through Denis Fergusson's mind, as he drove rapidly back to
Pinewood Lodge; and, whilst he ate his solitary meal that evening, in
Dr. Stokes's trim dining-room, furnished in precisely the way Fergusson
himself would not have furnished it, he found Cicely's delicately fair
face, and soft blue eyes constantly rising before his mental vision; he
found himself wondering what manner of man her husband had been, and
whether those blue eyes had been lighted with love for that dead man's
sake.
"She looked like some lovely, pathetic child when she talked to me
to-day," so his reflections ran "she and that fascinating Baba of hers,
are just a pair of babies together, and yet--all the woman and the
mother are in her, too," and, glancing round the formal room, Fergusson
sighed, and made a great effort to turn his thoughts away from sudden
alluring dreams of a home of his own, a home that would be really a
home, not merely a place in which to live, where the centre of all its
peace and happiness would be--his wife.
His wife? He laughed aloud, a little short laugh that rang
discordantly in his ears. It was quite improbable that he would ever
be able to afford to ask any woman to marry him, much less a dainty,
delicately nurtured woman who--who----
Back into his mind flashed the picture which he had been resolutely
thrusting from him, the picture of a lovely face, like some exquisite
flower rising above a cloud of filmy lace and soft dark furs, the big
feathers in her hat drooping against the gold of her hair. It was on
Mrs. Nairne's doorstep that he had first met Cicely, and the picture of
her as he saw her then in the pale wintry sunlight, seemed to haunt him
all the more persistently, because side by side with it, he saw
another, and strangely different picture. His own house in a South
London road, its sordid surroundings, its unsavoury neighbourhood, all
these made Cicely and her daintiness, seem like some princess belonging
to another world.
"Pshaw, you poor fool!" Fergusson ejaculated aloud, when, his dinner
ended, he retired to smoke in a small den, dignified by the name of
smoking-room; "the sooner Dr. Stokes comes back and you clear out from
here and return to the sober realities of life in Southwark, the better
for you. Dreaming dreams and seeing visions is no part of your
vocation."
He had reached this stage of his meditations, and had drawn up a chair
to the writing-table, with a grim determination to finish an article
for a medical journal, when the parlourmaid entering, handed him an
exceedingly grubby note. It was briefly worded--
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