England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Love stories
Whenever she and Fergusson had met, she had been conscious of her own
power over him, conscious also that something was holding him back.
And now, as it seemed to her, Christina had given her the clue, to what
had often sorely puzzled her. Her own outlook upon life was an
eminently simple one, and she had never dreamed that her rank or wealth
could make a bar to the friendship, and the something deeper than
friendship, of such a man as Denis Fergusson. Christina's words had
given her food for thought, and they had also brought her face to face
with the knowledge of herself, and of all that Denis was beginning to
mean to her. He possessed that same steadfast quality which had been
one of her husband's noblest characteristics, and the one perhaps that
had made the chief appeal to her more yielding nature. And Fergusson's
cheery strength and unfailing optimism, had gone far also towards
drawing her to him. But instinctively she had been aware of a barrier
between them, of something which he was rearing up against her, and
though the instinctive knowledge of the barrier had wounded and puzzled
her, it was only now, with Christina's words ringing in her ears, that
she understood the meaning of all the puzzle. The doctor was a poor
man, or at any rate comparatively poor, whilst she had more than enough
and to spare of this world's goods, and a title into the bargain; and
because the man was proud as well as poor, he had erected that barrier,
of which she had been confusedly conscious.
Well! Christina--straightforward Christina, with her almost boyish
love for all that was most natural, most frank and simple--had said, "I
would not let his pride spoil his life, and mine. If he was too proud
to ask me, then I should ask him!"
"But"--Cicely rose from her chair, and crossed the room to the
window--"but, of course, any such step as that was out of the question
for her--impossible and out of the question. She could never overcome
her pride, to such an extent as that--never!"
"Dr. Fergusson has called, my lady, and desired me to say that if you
were disengaged, he would be very glad if he could see you for a few
minutes." James, the footman, stood in the doorway, and even upon
James's slow intelligence, it dawned that his mistress looked unusually
lovely, and unusually young. But his dense mind did not especially
connect the youth or loveliness with anything or anybody; he only dimly
saw and wondered, whilst for the fraction of a second Cicely hesitated.
Should she order James to bring the doctor up to the boudoir--to this
dainty room in which she made a point of only receiving those who were
her most intimate friends? Or should she go down to the drawing-room,
and receive him as she received acquaintances? The two questions
revolved in her mind, and they were quickly answered.
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