That was his wife on his arm, and their two daughters. On that salary of
his.... Was it possible, it occurred to Ebenezer, that she was saving
egg money, earning sewing money, winning prizes for puzzles--as Letty
had done?
Outside the factory, the blue arc light threw a thousand shadows on the
great bulk of the building, but left naked in light the little office.
He stood looking at it, as he so rarely saw it, from part way across the
road. Seen so, it took on another aspect, as if it had emerged from some
costuming given it by the years. The office was painted brown, and
discoloured. He saw it white, with lozenge panes unbroken, flowered
curtains at the windows, the light of lamp and wood stove shining out.
And as sharply as if it had been painted on the air, he saw some
unimportant incident in his life there--a four-wheel carriage drawn up
at the door with some Christmas guests just arriving, and himself and
Letty and Malcolm in the open doorway. He could not remember who the
guests were, or whether he had been glad to see them, and he had no wish
in the world to see those guests again. But the simple, casual, homely
incident became to him the sign of all that makes up everyday life, the
everyday life of folk--_of folks_--from which he had so long been
absent.
His eye went down the dark little street where were the houses of the
men who were his factory "hands." Just for a breath he saw them as they
were,--the chorus to the thing he was thinking about. They were all
thinking about it, too. Every one of them knew what he knew.... Just
for a breath he saw the little street as it was: an entity. Then the
sight closed, but through him ran again that sense of keener being, so
poignant that now, as his veins flowed with it, something deeper within
him almost answered.
He wheeled impatiently from where he stood. He wanted to do something.
At the end of the street he could see them crossing under the light, on
their way to Mary Chavah's. Abel and Simeon might stop for him ... but
how could he go there, among the folk whom he had virtually denied their
Christmas? What would they have to say to him? Yet what they should say
would, after all, matter nothing to him ... and perhaps he would hear
them say something about Bruce and Jenny. Still, he had nothing to take
there, as Abel had suggested. What had he that a boy would want to have?
Unless....
He thought for a moment. Then he crossed the street to what had been his
house. He went in, seeing again the hallway and stair, red-carpeted, and
the door opened into the lamplit room beyond. He found and lighted an
end of candle that he knew, and made his way up the stair. There he set
the candle down and lowered the ladder that led to the loft.
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