The tears, which I confided to no one except the wooden-legged
blackbird--for Giudice would have made such a fuss about them--were
still upon my cheeks, when I heard the well-known step--not half so
elastic as usual. I fled into my bedroom, and pushed the boxes about,
to make a goodly noise, and to account for the colour in my face. Then
out I came at the side-door, and ran downstairs perversely, though I
knew that Conrad and Isola were in my sitting-room.
But this first-rate manoeuvre only outwitted its author, for Isola ran
down after me, and sent me upstairs alone. All my little nonsense
vanished the moment I looked in Conrad’s face. His healthy brown
complexion was faded to an opal white; beneath his eyes such dark blue
rims, that I thought he had spectacles on; and on either cheek a round
red spot was burning. So shocked I was, that when he took my hand, I
turned my face away and smothered down a sob. I felt that I had no
right to be so fresh and blooming. Nor was it only in health that the
contrast between us lay. I was dressed with unusual care, having
fidgeted all the morning, and with my utmost taste. Poor Conrad was in
his working clothes, full of marble dust, tumbled, threadbare, and even
in need of mending; his hair swept anyhow, and his hands not over-lately
washed. Yet, for all that, he was as clearly a gentleman, as I was a
lady.
Not so would he have been arrayed, I fancy, had he thought to see neat
Clara. And yet, who knows? "I trust that you will excuse me," he began
to say, "but such things have happened lately--you will not account me
rude--I had no sense at all of this great pleasure."
"I fear you have not been very happy." I knew not what to say, or how
to keep my voice clear.
"Yes," he replied, "as happy as I deserve. It serves me aright for
esteeming so much of myself, before that I do anything. But I will win
my way"--and his own proud glance flashed out--"and we shall see how
many will scorn me then."
"No one in the world can scorn you," I said very softly, and my voice
thrilled through him.
"Ah, you are always kind and gentle:"--am I though, thought I--"but I
will no more fatigue you with my different lot in life. I am told that
some great nobleman has won you for his own. Perhaps you will give me
an order."
His throat was swelling with these bitter words, and he looked at his
dusty clothes. Somewhat rude I thought him, but I knew not half his
troubles.
"Whoever told you that, has made a great mistake. I am engaged to no
one. Your sister knows me better." And I turned away to the window.
For a minute he said nothing; but I could hear his heart beat.
Stedfastly I looked at the cheesemonger’s shop. Oh for a flower, or
something on the balcony!
Presently he came round the corner of the sofa. Without being rude, I
could not help turning round.
His face was much, much, brighter, and his eyes more kind.
"Have I said any harm--I would not for the world--I knew not it was
harm."
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