I go out to exterminate the Gauls; I come, I see, I conquer; and the
best of it all is that it does not cost me one single drop of blood!
Then, too, my riches are beyond counting; each story is a caravel,
laden with the treasures of the East or Barbary; bringing precious
metals, old wines, strange beasts, and captured slaves of the rarest
beauty:--such breasts, such ivory limbs! All this is mine, these
empires rose, flourished and disappeared, only to give me pleasure.
I feel as if I were at a Carnival, where in turn I can wear every
man’s mask and disguise, even to putting on his skin, and with it his
thoughts and passions. Thus I am at once the music, and the dancer, the
book and old Plutarch, who was inspired to write it in a most fortunate
hour.
How good it is to let the rhythm of words and phrases carry you off,
dancing and laughing, into space, free from all trammels of the body.
This mind, this thought of ours is God Himself. Praise be to His Holy
Spirit!--Sometimes I pause in the midst of the story to imagine how
it will turn out, and then compare my own fancy with the image which
nature or art had created. In the case of art, I am so sharp that I
can generally guess right; and then how I laugh at my own cleverness!
But the old witch, life, is often too much for me!--her resources are
beyond our feeble comprehension. There is only one part of the tale
which she never troubles herself to vary; all her stories end in the
same way--wit, war, love--you know what happens to them--they disappear
into the darkness; and on this one point she certainly does repeat
herself.
She is like a naughty child, breaking her toys when she is tired of
them, till I am provoked to blame her for being so destructive, and
snatch the pieces out of her hands; but it is too late; they are broken
past repair; and all that I can do, is to cherish what is left, as
Glodie rocks the remains of her doll in her arms.
At each revolution of the dial this Death comes nearer and nearer, like
a beautiful refrain: “Strike hour! ring bells, ding dong ding.” Now, I
fancy myself Cyrus, Emperor of Persia, Conqueror of Asia; hear what I
say:--“Friend, envy me not the small space of earth, which covers my
poor body.”--I stand beside Alexander as he reads this epitaph and
trembles, for in it he seems to hear his own voice rising from the tomb.
Now that you are dead, great Cyrus and Alexander, how near you both
seem to me; do I dream? or are they really there? I pinch myself to
find out if I am awake, yes, there on the table by my side are two
coins which I dug up in my vineyard last year, with the profiles of
bearded Commodus dressed as Hercules, and Crispina Augusta, with her
heavy chin and her shrewish nose.--“This is no dream,” say I; “for here
is Rome between my thumb and forefinger.”
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