Now as the winter draws on the shortening days are like precious stuffs
folded away into the coffer of the nights, only to reappear, already
growing longer, on St. Lucy’s Day. The seasons have turned once more
on their well-oiled hinges, the door has shut and opened again, and
through the crack the new year begins to shine.
As I sit this Christmas Eve under the great chimney-hood, I am as it
were at the bottom of a well, and can look up and see the bright stars
winking in the sky, and from far off comes the sound of the bells
ringing for midnight mass. I love to think that the Child was born at
this dead hour when all the world was still. His voice speaks to us of
the coming day and of the New Year, and Hope, with her warm wings,
broods over the frozen night and softens it.
My children have all gone to church, but I have missed it for the
first time in my life, and I am here alone with my dog Citron, and the
household cat Patapon. A little while ago we were all gathered round
the hearth, and I was telling Glodie wonderful fairy tales. You should
see her open her round eyes at the story of Bout-de-Canard and the
little bald chicken, or of the boy who made a fortune out of his cock
by selling it to people who wanted to know when the day was coming, so
that they could carry it away in their carts. It was too amusing to see
her, and the others listening and laughing, every one putting in his
word.
Sometimes when we were silent for a minute we could hear the water
bubbling in the kettle, a log falling in the fire, the cricket’s shrill
voice, and, outside, the wind sweeping against the window. I love these
snug winter evenings, the silence, the sense of intimacy, when my
fancies can wander far afield and return safe to the home nest.
I have been making up my budget for the last year, and I find that
in six months I have lost all that I possessed; my wife, my house,
my money, and my legs; and yet, absurd as it sounds to say so, on
striking a balance, I find myself as rich as ever. How can that be,
when I have nothing?
No burdens, would be nearer the truth; for I find myself lightened
of care, happier, freer than the wind that blows; I would not have
believed it, if, last year, any one had predicted what would happen and
that I should take it in this spirit. I had always sworn that whatever
came, to the day of my death, I would be master in my own house,
independent, owing nothing to any one but myself. Well, we do not know
what a day will bring forth. Things turn out so differently from what
we intended, and we are nevertheless content.
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