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Colin left a tranquil Dennis curled round in bed like a drowsy puppy
when he went to his room a few minutes later. But he was not so tranquil
himself. He had not imagined that any panic terror would seize the boy:
he had only meant to plant a seed, a suggestion, ever so quietly,
leaving it to mature.... Dennis would not come to love evil, so that,
when the time for his choice arrived, he would choose ‘wisely and well,’
if it approached him with these strangling assaults of nightmare. Why
had it happened like that, he wondered? No boy’s soul, at that age, was
of such virgin and stainless purity that the breath of evil suffocated
him.... More likely that it was his own divided purpose, his own
struggle against that obstacle which somehow he had himself set up
against the free flowing of the stream he had directed against Dennis.
Some force, he felt sure, had reached the sleeping boy from him; that he
had intended, and he had felt it flowing through him. But had it reached
him in some fierce torrent, raging at having been checked in its
passage, and settling on him with claws and teeth? Had it been like some
wild beast, which, having been shewn its lawful and desired prey, was
held back from it?
He must not approach Dennis again like that, nor seek to hold back the
power that he directed. It was no conscious scruple on his part which
had blocked the channel: the obstacle seemed to have made itself, and
planted itself there. It was of the same nature as the instinct that
made his hand search for the switch and turn up the light at Dennis’s
appealing cry. He hated the boy to be frightened, quite apart from the
fact that Dennis must of his own inclination welcome and cherish the
power that was ready to protect him and be his friend even as it had
been his father’s friend, and the friend of old Colin. It had come to
Dennis to-night as a foe of malignancy and terror: that would never
do....
Colin had slipped quickly out of his clothes, and now, before he got
into bed, he drew up the blind, and throwing the window wide leaned out
into the pregnant spring night. Thick and warm was the darkness, a floor
of cloud covered the sky, and there would be rain before morning, the
soft, fruitful, windless April rain which sent the sap flooding upwards
through stem and branch till it burst into leaf and bud. The young
growth needed not pelting showers and fierce suns; it prospered most in
these still warm nights.... And Dennis was like these tender, sappy
shoots: he must be left to grow quietly yet awhile, not drenched by
deluge and speared by violent suns: these would only blast and wither
him.... How panic-stricken the boy had been! That psychical onslaught
had from its very vehemence been to him a hostile intrusion, not the
advent of a protecting power. How instinctively in the shock and terror
of it he had called to his father!
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