England -- Fiction; Gay men -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction
The ball of laughter and talk had been thrown hither and thither merrily
enough all dinner time; Dennis and Colin were the chief performers, and
Violet had taken but little part in it. All day she had wrestled with a
secret jealousy; not once had Dennis, to whose last day at home she
usually devoted herself, appeared to want her, and since their guests
had left in the morning he had been exclusively with his father. It was
all very natural: his exuberance wanted his golf and his rabbit-shooting
and the activities of his budding manhood. And yet it was not the boy’s
fault that he had not spared her a half-hour out of his day, for at the
conclusion of each diversion, Colin had been at hand with another. Was
it simply for her discomfiture, and the exhibition of his own triumphant
rivalry that he had done that? Certainly that would have been a
sufficient motive for him, but she felt there was something else as
well, a larger issue, an ampler cause. If it had been that alone, he
would have had little oblique mockeries for her, would have called her
attention to his success, would even have told Dennis to go and talk to
her, and that when he had had a “nice talk” he was ready to fish or play
tennis.
And then, like a blown flame, those little surface-jealousies went out.
Was Colin planning some final employment for Dennis to-night? She knew
he had sent for Mr. Douglas this evening, and had had some private
interview with him, for she had unwittingly interrupted it, and seen the
breaking off of their topic when she entered the room.... At the
thought, that small green flame was quenched, and cold apprehension
gripped her. As dinner went on she ceased to take any part in those gay
crossing volleys, and became, like old Lady Yardley, silent and watchful
and aware. She seemed to enter into the spirit of all those generations
of silent and frozen women who were the wives and mothers of the race.
They had always been like that who were knit into the line through which
the legend was transmitted, and now she seemed to comprehend the nature
of that vesture of ice that clothed them, for they knew that it was
through their blood and the love of their conceiving bodies that the
Satanic bargain was kept alive, and that their sons were the inheritors
of the bond. Was that not enough to freeze the mother the fruit of whose
womb would be dedicated to hell, who watched the growing strength and
beauty of her son, and knew the consecration of evil to which, at his
choice, he gave his soul? She would see him prosperous beyond all other
heritors, beauty and health, honour and wealth, would be his, and her
spirit would freeze and burn in the ice of knowing that all this was but
the payment in dross for that which in the eyes of God was worth the
ransom of the precious blood.... Would she get used to that, she
wondered, so that the knowledge became part of her nature, and, as the
flocks of grey-winged years passed over her head, she would become so
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