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“Perhaps another year he’ll take you,” said Violet. She felt no sense of
injury in the fact that Dennis wanted to be out there with him, rather
than at home with her. She thanked God that it was so, that all these
wretched days, when his father had persecuted him, had left no stain on
the luminous brightness of his affection. At all costs she wanted that
to retain its shining quality. Even if Dennis suffered, he suffered in
the cause of love: if he had not loved his father, he would have thought
of him now as merely a very disagreeable person whose absence was a
matter for congratulation. But even now Dennis wanted to be with him; he
was disappointed that his postponed return would rob him of a glimpse
before he went back to Eton.
“I wonder if he will,” said Dennis. “I wonder----”
Violet felt that the boy was on the verge of speech. She drew him back
against her knees, encompassing his shoulders.
“Yes, darling, what do you wonder?” she said.
Dennis drew a long breath.
“I wonder what made Father so beastly to me when I came home this time,”
he said. “I can’t think of anything that I had done. I didn’t mean to
speak of it, but ... but had I done anything, Mother?”
“No, darling,” she said gently.
“Then it’s not my fault, anyhow,” he said. “That’s something. Oh Lord, I
have thought about it so much. So if it’s not me, it’s something that
has just got hold of Father.... I wish it would let go. He came up to my
room one night, you know, and was just as he used to be. I believe.... I
believe he’s fond of me all the time, really. What am I to do?”
She wondered how near the truth he had come. The words, “something has
got hold of Father.... I wish it would let go,” were extraordinarily
apt. But she could not tell him that his father loved hate, and hated
love, and that in her belief love was beginning to assert itself against
that black dominion. To tell him that, to speak of the legend and of the
choice which Colin had renewed for himself, might spoil the instinctive
simplicity with which Dennis faced it all. She could not tell him that
his father had tried to corrupt him, and, failing there, was trying to
kill his love. The truth, baldly stated, might easily produce in him, if
he understood it, just that atmosphere of horror in which love gasped
for breath.
“Dennis darling,” she said. “You can help your father in a way that
nobody else can.”
“How?” said Dennis quickly. “And what’s it all about?”
“It doesn’t matter what it’s all about,” she said. “But you can help him
by doing just what you are doing. Go on loving him, dear. Never let
yourself cease loving him.”
“As if I could help doing that!” said Dennis.
He was busy next morning. He scribbled a long letter to his father, and
copied it out with extreme care. No one could possibly say it was
illegible....
CHAPTER VI
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