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That shape in the doorway seemed to him rather larger than it had been
at first: perhaps it had moved a silent step nearer him. It had outlined
itself a little more clearly now: the shape of the shoulders and the
head was more sharply defined; round the head there was a faint
luminousness like the halo the moonlight casts round a man’s shadow on
the grass.
In the silence that followed Colin asked himself whether he was still
asleep, whether the whole adventure was a dream, whether he would
presently wake up and find himself in his bed at Stanier. And then the
voice spoke again, and he knew that, whether he dreamed, or whether
indeed he was awake, the substance of things unseen was in
manifestation.
“Why did you save Dennis?” asked the quiet voice.
The question was utterly unexpected. But whoever this was, he had no
claim to be answered. His Lord and Benefactor, if it was he, knew that
his soul was set on evil and hate. And what right had any other power in
heaven or earth or in the dark places to question him? Why he answered
at all, he did not know; his voice seemed to take it upon itself to do
so.
“I saved Dennis,” he said, “just simply because I chose to. It was my
own business, and my will is free.”
“You might easily have been drowned,” said the voice. “Did you consider
that?”
“I knew I was taking that risk,” said Colin.
“And did you consider what doom awaited you?”
“Yes.”
“Then why did you save Dennis?”
Colin began to catch a glimpse of the purport of the question. But
nothing, he determined, should make him give the answer that he felt was
required of him. Besides, such an answer, he told himself, was not true.
He had been guilty, at the most, of a momentary weakness.
“I saved him, I tell you,” he said, “because I chose to. He was my only
son. Was it not reasonable that I should wish him to live and continue
my line?”
He was definitely uneasy now. His uneasiness irritated him into
flippancy.
“Perhaps you are a bachelor,” he said, “and so you can’t be expected to
understand that. In any case I don’t know what right you have to ask me,
and I have no other answer for you.”
Once more there was silence. Then the quiet voice spoke again.
“Why did you save Dennis?” it asked.
The question was beginning to frighten him. He felt as if he was on the
rack, and that each time the question came some lever was pulled, some
cog clicked, and the ropes round his wrists and ankles were getting more
taut. He could just feel the strain of them which would presently
increase.
“Why did you save Dennis?” asked the voice again.
This time Colin clenched his teeth. Whatever torture might be in store,
he would never answer that. There was no actual pain yet, only the
anticipation of it. But surely years had passed since he found his way
through the mist into this shed. It could not only have been last
evening, as the dusk of this present night began to fall, that he had
come here and covered himself up in the straw.
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