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Outside the mist had cleared, and he could see through the empty
door-space the pasture covered with thick dew, and a few scattered sheep
with their lambs beside them. It must be close on dawn, for in the east
there was a long line of cloud, flushed red with the sun that had not
yet risen on the earth. For the moment, with a pang of exquisite relief,
he thought he was alone, and that the inquisition of the night was over.
But how terribly real a dream could be! Dennis had known that when he
woke from his nightmare, and threw himself into his father’s arms for
protection. And this dream, even though now he was awake, had still
that quality of eternity about it.
He sat up. And then he saw that the figure was by him once more, close
to him now. It was still a shadow, dark and undecipherable, in spite of
the flushed twilight of the coming day.
“Why did you save Dennis?” it asked.
The torture shot through him again, more poignant than ever to his
racked spirit. He bowed his head, and felt the drops of agony grow thick
on his forehead. But still he made no answer.
He raised his eyes, as if in obedience to a command, and saw the lines
of cloud red in the dawn. And the voice spoke:
“See where Christ’s blood streams in the firmament. One drop would save
your soul. But you would never call on Him, Colin, because you hate
Him.”
He could not answer, so rending was the torture. He waited, writhing and
stiffened against what was coming.
“Why did you save Dennis?” asked the voice.
At that the full fierceness of mortal agony was let loose on him, and
that agony was eternal: it had existed before ever time began. The evil
of all that he had done, the utter depravity of his soul, with its lust
for hate and its hate of love, was torn and wrenched by the inflexible
power of that which had made him so lightly vault over the parapet of
the sluice, and strike out across the icy water towards Dennis. With all
his force, with all his will he resisted, but his force faded, his will
faltered and collapsed, and with a wail of pain he surrendered.
“I saved him because I loved him,” he cried. “I give in, you devil from
the pit. For Christ’s sake don’t torture me any more!”
The rending agony in which he writhed ceased, the strain relaxed.
Blinded with sweat and tears he looked at the figure that stood close to
him now, but still it was no more than a shadow to him.
“Who are you?” he sobbed. “Why have you tortured me like this? Are you
my Lord whom I have served so well? Who are you?”
At that the shadow brightened into a beam that dimmed the lines of
morning, and filled the hut with a radiance on which he could not look.
And once more, for the last time, the quiet voice spoke.
“I am Love,” it said.
THE END
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