England -- Fiction; Gay men -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction
She had been here a couple of days, during which she had never let go of
herself at all. She had been quite cool and comrade-like. Violet might
have listened to all that they had to say to each other. But to-day
there had been signs that her self-control was becoming difficult to
her. She had sulked--no less--at luncheon, and that was a sure sign: it
always meant that a woman wanted to be asked, ever so delicately and
affectionately, what was the matter. He knew quite well what was the
matter, and so had not asked, but remained good-natured and maddeningly
unconscious of her mood till she gave that up, and apologized for being
so silent. Then to make amends (as if he cared!) she had been effusive
with protestations of how much she was enjoying herself, of how good it
was of him to ask her here.... And now again this wondering if they were
great friends indicated a certain perturbation....
“Tell me, are we great friends?” she asked.
He knew she would ask that again: women are such damned fools, and he
leaned lazily towards her.
“And tell me!” he said. “Don’t you know it?”
His face must have reassured her, for she let her eyes dwell on it, and
broke into a smile.
“I suppose I do,” she said. “You wouldn’t have asked me to stay with you
otherwise. What a bore we women must be! We always want to be reassured
about the things a man takes for granted!”
Colin turned over on to his side.
“I never take anything for granted,” he said. “It’s really much wiser
not to expect anything, and not to count on anything till it’s given
you.”
He knew she would attach a certain meaning to that. She did.
“Colin, what nonsense!” she said. “Why, you’re the one person in the
world who always gets what he wants.”
He sat up, plucked two long stems of grass, and threaded them together,
with that rapt intentness which must mean to her that he was thinking of
something else than this task of his fingers.
“Not a bit,” he said. “I have so often expected to get what doesn’t come
to me, and then what comes instead is a disappointment. Moral: never
ask, never expect! Take what is given you and be thankful, and if
nothing is given you, do without it. But, my dear, I didn’t bring you up
here to bore you with mild philosophical homilies.”
He threw away his threaded grass stems, and appeared to throw away with
them his unspoken preoccupation.
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