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“Of course I’m right,” said she. “Oh, youth passes so quickly, and with
it all power of real happiness, though you may tell me that you will
like to be old.... Ah, what nonsense!... Colin, you’re so different to
what I thought you at first. When first we met and made friends, you
were all laughter and enjoyment. Who could have guessed that you knew
sorrow or unrequited love?”
She paused a moment: in that gaze of his there was a light she had never
seen there yet. So suffocatingly sweet to her was it, that she panted
for breath.
“Don’t fence yourself in,” she said, “and mourn over ruins. Build with
them: use ... use the stones you spoke of, to make a pleasure-house.
Laugh to see them serve your end.”
He looked at her in amazement. There was enchantment and force in her,
and her beauty was enough to make a man’s senses reel. Was this the
strength of which Violet had spoken which was more potent than all else
in the world?
Pamela leaned back her head, pushing the heavy black hair from her
forehead.
“Open the curtains, Colin,” she said. “Let’s have some air; I’m
stifling.”
Was she going to faint, he thought, or adopt some mean feminine device
of her weakness to escape from the situation that was closing round her,
and which she had done her best to provoke? That would be tragic.... He
pulled back the curtain with a rattle of rings, and the still tide of
the night swept in.
“Ah, that’s delicious!” she said.
“Not faint?” he asked. “Not overtired?”
“Not a bit. It was just a breath of air I wanted: our lovely little tent
was concentrated, overcharged....”
“Are you sure?” he said. “Hadn’t you better go quietly to bed? It would
be wretched if in return for the help and strength you bring me--ah,
such help, such strength....”
If all the kingdoms of the world had been his, he would have staked them
against a penny-piece on her answer. It was her hour, she was winning,
so she thought, all down the line. This was not the moment for the
victor to ask for a truce.
She rose from her chair and stood by him. The flame burst out from her,
enveloping her in fire.
“It’s all yours,” she whispered. “All ... all.”
She swayed towards him, and he caught her close; her face was against
his, and she sought his lips. No word, no whisper even came from her:
dumbly she clung to him, and, exultant, he betrayed her with a kiss. The
best and the worst of her, love, trust, and all that was merely sensual
as well, were his.
For one second he wavered, and reconsidered. Partly it was the mere
beauty and physical intensity of her that gave him pause, partly also
something akin to what he had felt when he saw Dennis staggering on the
terrace at Stanier. Then back, stronger than ever from the gathered
force of that check, came his hatred of love.
“We must go in,” he said.... “Pamela, you adorable thing. Your pity
first, and then your love.”
They paused at the head of the stairs. Not a word had passed since they
left the table.
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