Colonel Quaritch, V.C.: A Tale of Country LifeHaggard, H. Rider (Henry Rider)
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Colonel Quaritch, V.C.: A Tale of Country Life
Haggard, H. Rider (Henry Rider)
Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction
“I don’t know, father, dear,” she answered, her eyes filling with
tears; “we must trust to Providence, I suppose. I know you think me
very selfish,” she went on, catching him by the arm, “but, oh, father!
there are things that are worse than death to women, or, at least, to
some women. I almost think that I would rather die than marry Edward
Cossey, though I should have gone through with it if he had kept his
word.”
“No, no,” said her father. “I can’t wonder at it, and certainly I do
not ask you to marry a man whom you dislike. But still it is hard upon
me to have all this trouble at my age, and the old place coming to the
hammer too. It is enough to make a man wish that his worries were over
altogether. However, we must take things as we find them, and we find
them pretty rough. Quaritch said he was coming back this evening,
didn’t he? I suppose there will not be any public engagement at
present, will there? And look here, Ida, I don’t want him to come
talking to me about it. I have got enough things of my own to think of
without bothering my head with your love affairs. Pray let the matter
be for the present. And now I am going out to see that fellow George,
who hasn’t been here since he came back from London, and a nice bit of
news it will be that I shall have to tell him.”
When her father had gone Ida did a thing she had not done for some
time—she wept a little. All her fine intentions of self-denial had
broken down, and she felt humiliated at the fact. She had intended to
sacrifice herself upon the altar of her duty and to make herself the
wedded wife of a man whom she disliked, and now on the first
opportunity she had thrown up the contract on a quibble—a point of law
as it were. Nature had been too strong for her, as it often is for
people with deep feelings; she could not do it, no, not to save Honham
from the hammer. When she had promised that she would engage herself to
Edward Cossey she had not been in love with Colonel Quaritch; now she
was, and the difference between the two states is considerable. Still
the fall humiliated her pride, and what is more she felt that her
father was disappointed in her. Of course she could not expect him at
his age to enter into her private feelings, for when looked at through
the mist of years sentiment appears more or less foolish. She knew very
well that age often strips men of those finer sympathies and
sensibilities which clothe them in youth, much as the winter frost and
wind strip the delicate foliage from the trees. And to such the music
of the world is dead. Love has vanished with the summer dews, and in
its place are cutting blasts and snows and sere memories rustling like
fallen leaves about the feet. As we grow old we are too apt to grow
away from beauty and what is high and pure, our hearts harden by
contact with the hard world. We examine love and find, or believe we
find, that it is nought but a variety of passion; friendship, and think
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