Colonel Quaritch, V.C.: A Tale of Country LifeHaggard, H. Rider (Henry Rider)
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Colonel Quaritch, V.C.: A Tale of Country Life
Haggard, H. Rider (Henry Rider)
Country life -- Fiction; Pastoral fiction
“Dearest Ida,” he ended, “I can say nothing more; you must judge for
yourself; and I shall accept your decision loyally whatever it may be.
It is unnecessary for me to tell you how inextricably my happiness in
life is interwoven with that decision, but at the same time I do not
wish to influence it. It certainly to my mind does not seem right that
a woman should be driven into sacrificing her whole life to secure any
monetary advantage either for herself or for others, but then the world
is full of things that are not right. I can give you no advice, for I
do not know what advice I ought to give. I try to put myself out of the
question and to consider you, and you only; but even then I fear that
my judgment is not impartial. At any rate, the less we see of each
other at present the better, for I do not wish to appear to be taking
any undue advantage. If we are destined to pass our lives together,
this temporary estrangement will not matter, and if on the other hand
we are doomed to a life-long separation the sooner we begin the better.
It is a hard world, and sometimes (as it does now) my heart sinks
within me as from year to year I struggle on towards a happiness that
ever vanishes when I stretch out my hand to clasp it; but, if I feel
thus, what must you feel who have so much more to bear? My dearest
love, what can I say? I can only say with you, God help us!”
This letter did not tend to raise Ida’s spirits. Evidently her lover
saw that there was another side to the question—the side of duty, and
was too honest to hide it from her. She had said that she would have
nothing to do with Edward Cossey, but she was well aware that the
matter was still an open one. What should she do, what ought she to do?
Abandon her love, desecrate herself and save her father and her house,
or cling to her love and leave the rest to chance? It was a cruel
position, nor did the lapse of time tend to make it less cruel. Her
father went about the place pale and melancholy—all his jovial manner
had vanished beneath the pressure of impending ruin. He treated her
with studious and old-fashioned courtesy, but she could see that he was
bitterly aggrieved by her conduct and that the anxiety of his position
was telling on his health. If this was the case now, what, she
wondered, would happen in the Spring, when steps were actually taken to
sell the place?
One bright cold morning she was walking with her father through the
fields down on the foot-path that led to the church, and it would have
been hard to say which of the two looked the paler or the more
miserable. On the previous day the Squire had seen Mr. Quest and made
as much of an appeal _ad misericordiam_ to him as his pride would
allow, only to find the lawyer very courteous, very regretful, but hard
as adamant. Also that very morning a letter had reached him from London
announcing that the last hope of raising money to meet the mortgages
had failed.
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