Colville of the Guards, Volume 1 (of 3)Grant, James
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Colville of the Guards, Volume 1 (of 3)
Grant, James
British -- Afghanistan -- Fiction; Soldiers -- Fiction
Ellinor, we have said, had thanked heaven for her escape from what
must have proved a great and perilous _esclandre_; yet by one of
those idiosyncracies of the female heart she also thanked heaven that
London was to be the place of their exile; Sir Redmond was there, no
doubt, and she felt assured that he loved her still. Mighty though
the modern Babylon was--and of that mightiness she had not the
slightest conception--they might meet again; and even, if not, it
would be pleasant to walk in the same streets where he walked or
rode; to breathe the same air that was breathed by him: to be in the
same place where _he_ was.
So she had, to enliven the path before her, a little element of
romance that was unknown to, and denied to the poor but more
practical Mary; and to her, foolish girl, it seemed that perhaps the
dear old tale might conclude, after all, with wedding bells and vows
of wedded love.
Why she should have indulged in these dreams it is difficult to say.
Days upon days had passed, and, like Colville, the impassioned
baronet, with whom she had been on the point of sharing her future,
gave no sign, and she could make none. But she was yet to learn
that; all the fine old Grandisonian notions of honour and delicacy
towards woman held by our grandfathers were exploded, or else deemed
absolutely antediluvian and absurd.'
Now she longed to be gone--gone even from Birkwoodbrae. 'She wanted
to see life' (she thought), 'as poets and painters and young ladies
picture it--a sort of misty, delicious paradisiacal existence of
excitement, unfailing amusement, and perpetual delight.'
The old peace of mind was gone; she wished to leave all connected
with it behind; and, poor girl, she little knew what was before
her--it might be of penury, struggle, and despair!
Every movement, as the hour of departure approached, brought a fresh
pang to the tender heart of Mary. She had parted with her pets and
household cares. Her tame owl she had cast loose, and she watched
him as he winged his way back to his eyrie in the ruined tower, from
which Robert Wodrow in happier times had brought him.
Wearily and sadly she had all the dear familiar spots, and the
cottars who dwelt among them, to visit for the last time--hard and
shrivelled hands to press and children to kiss. How should she ever
get through it all?
She picked up a few daisies from the graves where her parents lay,
and placed them between the leaves of her Bible, and then it seemed
as if there was nothing more to do.
The evening seemed painfully sweet and silent and still when the
sisters quitted their home for the last time, and to Mary it seemed
that even 'the grasshoppers were silent in the grass.'
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