Didactic fiction; Political fiction; Social problems -- Fiction
"No," she said quickly. "I don't think it's never right to lie. But I
guess sometimes you've just got to. If I'd told the truth, they'd have
sent me to prison, instead of the workhouse. I wouldn't have cared. It
ain't nice to lie, and like Mr. Thoreau says, there's worse things than
being in the worst prison. But it would have been awful for the others.
Just because I told the truth all the papers would have lied and said
all the girls were murderers. We'd have lost the strike. I'd have felt
better if I'd told the truth. But there's more than two thousand girls
in our trade.
"It's like this, I think. If you make up your mind that something is
good, you got to fight for it; you can't be afraid of getting beat up,
or arrested, or killed, and you can't be afraid of hurting your
conscience either. Mr. Thoreau has got an essay about John Brown and how
he fought to free the black slaves. Well, suppose somebody'd come to him
and told him how he could do it, if he'd commit a big sin himself. I
guess he'd have done it. If he'd said, 'You can beat me or put me in
prison or hang me for those black men, but I won't sin for them,' he'd
have been a coward. I'd rather go to prison than tell a lie like I done.
But I ain't afraid to do both."
She had sat up stiffly on the window-seat while she was trying to say
all this. Again she curled up. She watched Walter, as he sat there in
deep thought, absent-mindedly drumming on the table with his pencil. She
could not have talked like this to any one else in the world. She had
expressed herself poorly; in her intensity she had slipped back into her
old ways of speech, but she knew he did not care about doubled
negatives, nor "ain't's." She knew he had understood. And just when she
had found this wonderful friend, she was losing him. He was going away
in the morning for years and years. Central Asia sounded far away and
dangerous. Something might happen to him and he never come back. She was
afraid she would cry if she kept silence any longer.
"What do you think?" she asked.
"I was wondering if you are afraid of anything."
"Oh, yes. Lots of things."
"For instance?"
"Well, I'm afraid of the Yetta Rayefsky who tried to kill Pick-Axe. And
I'm afraid of myself for not blaming her for it. And I'm afraid of being
useless. I'm afraid of waste. I'm afraid--more than anything else--of
ignorance." She sat up again. "Yes. That's the worst thing the bosses do
to us--they keep us ignorant. I don't think even you can understand
that. You've had books all your life. You've been to school and college,
you're a professor,"--the awe grew in Yetta's voice,--"your room is full
of books. I sit here and look at them and try to think what it must mean
to know all that's in so many books and I want to get down on my knees,
I'm so ignorant."
"Good God! Yetta," he said savagely, jumping up. "Don't talk like that.
I'm not worth your stepping on."
He came over and took her hand and surprised her by kissing it humbly.
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